Eric's Favourite

[Meatpie]

As Christmas draws closer I think about eric often...and the great time we had together at christmas a couple of years ago when we first set up cdg.

He posted so many pics, most of them new and I got these from him - a dead rebel in Iraq.

He loved dead rebels with skull trauma.

This was his favourite set and I post it in his memory.



You are still not forgotten my friend, I love you.

I relive those happy hours we had together on the forum, I loved your wit, your sense of humour. You made me happy, you made me laugh although we were oceans apart.

You live in my memory and in the memory of your friends here at cdg.

This thread is for you.

MERRY CHRISTMAS ERIC I LOVE YOU!

Anyone who knew eric is welcome to post a reply, share memories and pics. Thank you. God Bless.

 

[aaron]

Nanaimo (Eric) was a friend to many here at CDG.



You are a good man for remembering him, Meatpie.

 

[Entilzha]

Whatever happened to him, is only known to the powers that be.
Although we cannot choose our destinies, Eric managed to live with his full in sight. He was there for everyone, and he was a good guy.
So here is to Eric, and all the other friends we lost along the way.
But I know that they are watching over us and are waiting for us to join them.

"To absent friends, long remembered and loved by a few, but missed by all"

 

[Meatpie]

Nanaimo (Eric) was a friend to many here at CDG.



You are a good man for remembering him, Meatpie.

I can't get over him. I wanna know how he is, is he alive at all... I wanna talk with him.

I miss him and I will probably not forget him for as long as I live.

We had a great time together and he helped me a lot when we started cdg.



I miss you eric, I love you where are you...that stupid fucked up boyfriend of yours didn't deserve you.

I had no ieea he was so depressed.

Several times he mentioned in emails that he was gonna shoot himself but I didn't buy it one bit, I thought after all the gory pics we have seen he would hardly dare do anything like that.

If time could turn back I would fly to Canada and stop him, no one deserves such a cruel fate.

No one.

 

[ArrowMan]

Eric, we hardly knew thee !

Oh Eric, where are you ?

How we miss you so.

We hope you will return, please !!!

Where are you?

WHERE ARE YOU ????

WHERE ARE YOU, Eric, WHERE, oh WHERE,
OH WHERE ??????????????????????

 

[Meatpie]

He is in the heavens now Arrow.

 

[necrogay]

OMG who was Eric???

But how could it be that such a HANDSOME young guy commits suicide???!!!??? No, this is not possible.

 

[Meatpie]

It has been a terrible experince for all who knew him.

They say time cures all....but I have to disagree.

I thought we would gradually get over it and forget him but as you can see he is absolutely not forgotten by his friends here at cdg.

We might be necros but we are not devoid of feelings.

I feel bad, I feel confused and sad about what happened.

I also blame myself for not talking with him more...I guess he tried to reach out to us by mentiong several times he was gonna shoot himself in the head.

I didn't take it seriously....until the day he suddently disappeared.

What a nightmare, I hope he wasn't in too much pain.

Why is the world such a fucked up place...

 

[ArrowMan]

Oh PieMan !

Think of it like this...I live only 400 miles to the SOUTH of Canada. Their brutal cold weather sweeps across Chicagoland as it is right now, as Chicagoland is SO FAR NORTH. We are one of the COLDEST major cities in the entire USA.

I have known a good number of Canadian males over the years. They are mostly a very decent, highly educated, friendly lot...very polite and respectful. Yet they have a melancholy DEEP inside of them.

Canadian men can turn very inward and insular. They can suddenly disappear and they become very independent. I have had this happen time and time again with Canadian men I have met in the cybersphere.

It has to do with the vastness of their country and their climate. They are an indendent lot, and carry much hidden sadness within them deep.

Canadian men often feel like they live in the shadow of the USA, they feel forgotten by the United Kingdom and Elizabeth II, even though they are the biggest Commonwealth of Nations country in the entire world in terms of area (Australia is second, India is third).

Canadian men often go into isolation, they shut down, they clamp up, they hibernate. Then all of a sudden, they will blossom forth again, for a short while, then they go back into their wintry lifestyle of their homeland.

This is what I want to believe is happening with our dear, dear friend, Eric !

Let us not give up on him, I think he is up there yet, away from computers and the hurried lifestyle of the USA, possibly in some small town doing his social work for local struggling people.

Ths is what I hope, and ... ERIC...let us hear from you ! WE MISS YOU, and WANT YOU TO COME BACK where you are ALWAYS WELCOME !!

WE WILL NOT ALWAYS BE HERE, Eric.....all of this could be gone tomorrow, time is SHORT...please, don't forget about us, don't hibernate, don't shut down, don't go into isolation like so many of your brother countrymen do in Canada !

Let us hear from you....PLEASE, Eric, PLEASE !!

 

[Meatpie]

I don't think you can generalize about a nation from a few men you met on the Internet.

Eric was incredibly fun to talk to, he was witty and had a great sense of humour.

But that dark part was slowling eating him from the inside, and I had no idea.

We should have done something for him Arrowstud. He gave us hints, he was reaching at us and we didn't pay attention.

He send me an email saying he was gonna shoot himself in the head.

I read it and replied in a joking manner, thinking he was telling me this to make me horny, part of the fun.

Just imagine the devastation when we learnt he had rally done it.

Eric lives in my memory everyday.

My eyes are full of tears now but also joy because I had the chance to meet such an amazing guy.

I haven't given up on him of course, I still pray that he comes back somehow...

 

[ArrowMan]

OMG who was Eric???

But how could it be that such a HANDSOME young guy commits suicide???!!!??? No, this is not possible.

I fully agree, Necro !!

This is NOT possible, Eric would never do this, I know !

ERIC, come back, don't hibernate and isolate any longer...your buddies are
missing you so, shake it off and come on back, please !

 

[Meatpie]

I don't think he is alive.

 

[ArrowMan]

I don't think you can generalize about a nation from a few men you met on the Internet.

Eric was incredibly fun to talk to, he was witty and had a great sense of humour.

But that dark part was slowling eating him from the inside, and I had no idea.

We should have done something for him Arrowstud. He gave us hints, he was reaching at us and we didn't pay attention.

He send me an email saying he was gonna shoot himself in the head.

I read it and replied in a joking manner, thinking he was telling me this to make me horny, part of the fun.

Just imagine the devastation when we learnt he had rally done it.

Eric lives in my memory everyday.

My eyes are full of tears now but also joy because I had the chance to meet such an amazing guy.

I haven't given up on him of course, I still pray that he comes back somehow...

Oh PieMan !

He shared with me his very troubled life, yes...which is private, and I will not discuss it here.

I encouraged him, told him I was always available....and he did reach back to me after the other went really sour, and he was sharing with me more than ever.

BUT THEN...he told me...about you know who .... who HATED him so !!!

Then suddenly he just disappeared, about three years ago this coming January.
Wait a minute .... it has been THREE YEARS now !?

THREE years without hearing from Eric ever again????

DAMN, that is a long time to "hibernate and isolate".... too long, Pie !!

OH Pie, what are we going to do??

Anybody, what are we going to do ??????

 

[Meatpie]

That is correct Arrowman. Three fucking years!

Please share with us what he told you, please I am begging you.

We must find out what happened.

 

[ArrowMan]

I don't think he is alive.

NOOOO, PieMAN..

NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

 

[Meatpie]

I am afraid Eric is no longer with us Arrow. It's been three fucking years!

Three years of sadness....I have so many questions.

Please share with us what he told you, it doesn't matter anymore, no point in hiding the truth!

WE WANT THE TRUTH!!!!

WHY DID ERIC SHOOT HIMSELF?

TELL ME?

I can't find any reasonable explanation.

 

[ArrowMan]

That is correct Arrowman. Three fucking years!

Please share with us what he told you, please I am begging you.

We must find out what happened.

Pie....

He shared VERY TROUBLING issues, TERRIBLE ISSUES he shared....A TOTAL NIGHTMARE !!

And then...NOTHING EVER AGAIN.



:sad02: :sad02: :sad02:

 

[Meatpie]

What issues Arrow? Be a man and tell me.

I know he had a borther, did he bully him?

He found out he was gay or what?

What is it Arrow, tell me!

I WANT THE TRUTH ABOUT MY FRIEND!!!!

I can't sleep, I feel so bad about this whole situation, Christmas is especially hard time for me...

 

[ArrowMan]

I am afraid Eric is no longer with us Arrow. It's been three fucking years!

Three years of sadness....I have so many questions.

Please share with us what he told you, it doesn't matter anymore, no point in hiding the truth!

WE WANT THE TRUTH!!!!

WHY DID ERIC SHOOT HIMSELF?

TELL ME?

I can't find any reasonable explanation.

Pie....

It is all TOO AWFUL and HORRIBLE to SHARE !!!!!!!!!!!!!

YOU do NOT WANT to know WHAT HAPPENED, how he suffered, how frightened he was, how desparing he was.

It makes me WEEP still !!

 

[Meatpie]

I WANNA KNOW!

PLEASE ARROW I AM BEGGING YOU.

This is torture not knowing what drove him to suicide.

As necrogay said eric was totally cute....This just isn't right.

Was it his brother? Did he beat him? Fuck him? What is it Arrow?

I can't stand this anymore. You gotta tell me!