My Parents Know

[Meatpie]

Up until a few weeks ago I succesfully managed to hide my lust for dead guys from my family.

But I was stupid enough to leave on a vacation with friends and leave my PC unprotected.

My father hacked into my computer while I was away and saw the dead guys.

Autopsy, murder, beheaded dude - everything.

Tonight he told mom in front of me.

I want to puke.

"There are so many corpses on your PC," he said.

He said he will send me to a mental clinic or call the police and send me to jail.

I now know what Eric felt like when his parents found out.

Its so devastating, I too want to kill myself.

They use the fact that they know to bully you, threaten you and take advanatage of you.

I have to live with my parents because I can't afford to pay for anything.

My granny buys me things like food and clothes and shit and pays the bills and that's it.

She is my only hope. But she is 80 and may soon die, if something happens to her I have no idea what I am gonna do in a country where there are no jobs, no prospects, no nothing.

My friends dumped me since I lost my job.

I used to have a great life - parties, booze and sex every night, you can check back my posts if you won't believe me.

But since I became unemployed I've become isolated.

I need to talk with someone and you guys are the only friends I can talk about these things.

 

[roadkill]

Well maybe it's time to leave home.
Start a new life.
Go and find a new country and place to live.

If they know that you were going for that job at the morgue,
You can always lie and tell them it's training material to get use to looking
at dead ppl w.o getting sick. (just an idea)

 

[Meatpie]

I left home when I was 18. I moved to another city and was entirely on my own.

I attended lectures at the university and got a job. I was on my own. I managed a team in a large company. I got a home, got a boyfriend, I really was doing quite well.

Had great fun!

But all good things come to an end.

From 2008 onwards things have started going downhill.

My job no longer seemed interesting, my necrophilia worsened.

Broke up with partner. I became unemployed and couldn't pay my bills.

I moved in with granny. My parents have another house but sometimes they spend a lot of time here too when the weather is bad.

My sister is the same.

She and her boyfriend lived in Sofia but both unemployed and not beeing able to find jobs they moved in with their parents.

They can't afford anything and because they live in different cities they can't even see each other even for single shag.

Neither has money to travel, pay for a hotel, let alone rent an apartment.

 

[deaddirty]

Ouch, Pieman,that sounds like one bad day! Bet you wanted the ground to open up and swallow you! For god's sake don't do anything bad to tyourdelf m|eaty, you know you've got plenty of friends here. Maybe time o move out from your parents, maybe even try the States, or one of the EU countries if they're easier to get into - saw Arrow was sending you plenty of info.
You take care, Meaptie

 

[deaddirty]

What were you studying at University? Even if you didn't finish the course, might still be a good lead-in for a job (or even Uni in another country).

 

[Entilzha]

Damn Pieman, that is one HORRIBLE setback and real DEGRADING.

No one should be treated like that!!

I wish you strength, luck and a good night's rest.
I wished I could wave a magic wand and take all your problems away, but I cannot.

I will be looking for ways to help you out.

 

[Meatpie]

What were you studying at University? Even if you didn't finish the course, might still be a good lead-in for a job (or even Uni in another country).

I graduated with excellent results, I was the only dude who got an excellent result on the final history exam.

We had a visiting professor from University of California, Berkeley.

I've graduated in media & journalism.

Immediately I took up a job in a large media outlet and they even promoted me as an executive editor.

I managed a team and there I learnt how to build websites. I wrote news articles for the BBC, people called us from all over the world to get information. I had contacts in London with some nice people, they invited us there so that out team could learn from the best...I never got to that.

I know the Prime minister and other important people here...including the chief of the forensic institute.

Yet, here I am - unemployed & confused...even my friends dumped me.

My necrophilia fucked up my life in a terrible way, I lost interest in my job and went straight to the morgue. Stupid I know but I needed to try it.

Luckily, they offered me the job immediately, gave me documents but I couldn't do it because of the 100 rotting bodies in the basement.

Now tell me friend, what is this?

You know me, we have been together on th eintetrnet for years.

Never imagined I would come to this.

 

[Darkside]

The first thing I would ask is to your father, what the hell did he hack in to your computer for?, you are a grown man and it's none of his bussines what you look at in your private life.
As for the threats of having you sectioned, it is very doubtfull that he would actually be ablde to do this without medical assistance or without a phyciatric report. if you have never harmed youself or anyone else to fill your desires, then it is certain he won't be able to have you locked away in an institution (well thats how it works in the UK)
As for the police, you have't broken any laws. Remind your father that if he does go to the police all his friends , family and work collegues will get to here about it and that the actions of the children are always viewed as being in some way the fault of the parents, does he want every one to think that he must also have these feelings and desires,
GUILTY BY ASSOCIATION.
While this recession goes on we are all finding it hard, but THE GOOD TIMES WILL RETURN it's just a matter of hanging in there and riding out the storm.
If you parents were truely upset and serious about thier threats , they would have thrown you out of the house by now, they haven't so although shocked and confused, they obviously still love you.
Friends that dissapear when the money and fun runs out are not realy friends and you are better off without them.
Hang on in there , we are your friends here, we may not be able to meet, but we are more reliable than all of those so called friends and prety boys that you have met in the past.
DON'T LET THE FUCKERS GRIND YOU DOWN, YOU ARE WORTH MORE THAN THAT.

 

[ArrowMan]

Oh Pie...

This is so awful ! But as the Chinese say in their language ... a CRISIS means AN OPPORTUNITY.
I will contact you privately about this.

 

[Meatpie]

DON'T LET THE FUCKERS GRIND YOU DOWN, YOU ARE WORTH MORE THAN THAT.

I aint worth shit.

I should have listened to you but I am a pussy. Should have given the morgue job a fucking try. I would have been able to pay my bills and live in my own apartment now, not having to rely on granny and meeting my parents.

I ran into debt Dark, they send us letters that if I don't pay the bills they will take me to court.

I paid but got even more fucked up.

My dad keeps threatening me but is physically weaker than me so its mainly verbal abuse.

 

[roadkill]

No Disrespect your posting Darkside.

But I don't think it would be fruitful to asking his dad what the Fuck you're doing on my computer. it's his parents house and they pretty much can do whatever they want. (as a matter a fact, I'll bet you 100 L that is where the arguement will go).

My 2 cents is. Time for Plan B. (moving out and finding a new life)

 

[Meatpie]

I already told my dad what Dark said.

I told him what I do with my PC and what I enjoy is entirely my business and that I've never touched his computer.

 

[roadkill]

Yeah well. Do they know your Gay?

I know that might be mood pt right now, but it could make things worse.

 

[Meatpie]

I think they know now because dad also opened up my porn folder.

He said, he seen lots of naked dudes on my PC.

Terrible, isn't it?

Do your parents know?

 

[roadkill]

Oh yeah.

Why do you think I'm living in France and doing this kind of work?

 

[Meatpie]

I see. You are in a much better situation then.

How did you tell them? Or they found out gay porn on your PC?

lol

 

[Darkside]

You tried the morgue job, didn't like it , don't think about going back.
Something will turn up it always does, it just takes time, whcich we all have plenty of.
As for the debt thing , everyone i know has debts, and we have all had threatening letters from time to time, it is normal proceedure for the credit companies to threaten court, but is very unusual for them to go that way as they know it is very unlikely they will recover all of the money.
In time you will get back on your feet, (we all will) then you can get your own place and then decide who in your family and friends has stuck by you at your time of need and who deserves to be kept close and in contact with, those who didn't suport you properly you can now tell to go fuck themselves. After all this shit is over you will be a much stronger and wiser person.
GIVE IT TIME.

 

[roadkill]

They saw me kissing a BF when I came home. It was very late at night and I didn't think they would still be up.

 

[roadkill]

You tried the morgue job, didn't like it , don't think about going back.
Something will turn up it always does, it just takes time, whcich we all have plenty of.
As for the debt thing , everyone i know has debts, and we have all had threatening letters from time to time, it is normal proceedure for the credit companies to threaten court, but is very unusual for them to go that way as they know it is very unlikely they will recover all of the money.
In time you will get back on your feet, (we all will) then you can get your own place and then decide who in your family and friends has stuck by you at your time of need and who deserves to be kept close and in contact with, those who didn't suport you properly you can now tell to go fuck themselves. After all this shit is over you will be a much stronger and wiser person.
GIVE IT TIME.

No disrespect, DarkS(lord),

Plan for a backup still.

 

[Meatpie]

You tried the morgue job, didn't like it , don't think about going back.

I liked the morgue I got a boner.

But the conditions were awful.

I have a question for you Dark, if you were me, in my situation would you take it or leave it?

They saw me kissing a BF when I came home. It was very late at night and I didn't think they would still be up.

Sweet. What happened next?