I don't get it...

[bindiboi]

Well it wasn't solid flatline for 14 minutes. I guess my heart started up a few times during the resuscitation, managed to beat a couple times, then stopped again. It was a very difficult resus., the doctor told me. The last defib was to be the last before calling death. The only after effect I have is a heart murmur that wasn't there before, or at least not detected. Another oddity is that I didn't have any damage to my heart from the repeated shocks. I do get an echocardiogram every year just to watch things.

No, I'm not scared my heart will stop again, I have faced death so many times I don't fear it. While I don't welcome death per se. the thought does excite me very, very much.

Don't get me wrong, I love to look at a hot guy. But I have never gotten off through visual stimulus, even before my NDE. If I watch anything pronographic (which is pretty meuch never) I see it through clinical or creative eyes, never sexual. I know that is odd and rare. But hey, I don't mind being odd and unique. I embrace it. Although I admit, I wish I could "unlock" myself from only getting off on my own death sometimes.

 

[justus]

Visuals are definitely the most exciting, but for some of us, those pics and videos can be rerun in our heads as clearly as watching the original, even tweaked to fit our fantasies more perfectly. Perhaps not everyone can do that?

One of my problems is that I can only use a specific fantasy so many times before it doesn't work any more. Then I need to find something new. And that is always difficult.

 

[Andrew1999]

OK, I also have fantasies about being dead and abused, etc, in addition to a wide variety of other necro fantasies where I'm in control, but being cruel or a serial killer isn't part of mine. I think my necro may have started or have had necro tendencies activated after I started wishing I was a ghost in 4th grade. We lived far out in the country for several years, w/ a limited group of kids to play with. While I loved spending most of my time in the woods alone, i had a miserable life at home & at school, which made being a ghost able to trick folk & etc, seem appealing.

I'd had really odd thoughts along necro lines before, but wishing to be dead marked when I started actively imagining necro stories. That, Bluntman is how I, anyway came to find the idea of necro a real thrill.

 

[GoreGoreGadget]

For me, most of thees guys are a paricularly rare kind of eye-candy. I don't think I'd find myself doing much with a corpse if it was given to me besides touching it and a bit of fondling.
I'm attracted more to the control and torment angle, seeing and causing pain in others has always gotten me going, ever since i was fairly young.

I use this site though to keep myself from doing something stupid and having mself locked away, supplemtned with someone who'll let me hurt them on occasion. its never fully enough but really, nothing ever will be.