Other than my usual gladiator fantasies, firing squads turn me on a lot. If I was going to die anyway, sure, send me to the arena or shoot me.
 
is not a simple question ... yes fantasy become stronger and you're almost sure that he was ready at the end of your imagination-death (but what are we all going to live forever, we will all die all the time in question!))) ..) and second
there is no certainty that being at the last line, you do not want it all back ... but it will be impossible ..
 
Agree that timing is all - but I would rather die in the time manner and style of my choosing... my fantasy can be played out alone in its simplest form
 
I absolutely would! If I get an offer from any guy here or other places I hang out to get me dead, I'm doing it! No question about it!
 
I had a woman promise to meet me to do the deed. Hanging of course. I absolutely was going to go through with it and would have if she hadn't backed out. It kind of started out as fantasy chat and before long I found myself feeling I couldn't pass up the chance. She said she wanted to see me cum while hanging by my neck and promised to make sure it happened. Sucking my cock until I was almost there and shoving me off the stool!

I found myself going around half-hard all day just thinking about it. We even scouted out a lake resort near her with a-frame cabins and shared the pics. Excellent beams to throw a noose over. I would have rented one of the places so she could come and go with no one knowing. Just a simple note and we would have made it look like I just did it myself.

My thoughts were that getting it just the way I dreamed of all my life, going out proud and hard, blowing my last wad in the process, would be worth losing a few years to me. I find no humiliation in a man hanging with a hard cock. To me it would be the ultimate show of balls, gay or straight, to step up on the stool and get it done!
 
figure im gonna be exed by hangin one day man, prob in prison, they'll call it suicide
that or be shot while im tied to a post, either-- aint gonna be my decision
 
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OK, self destructive thoughts are getting stronger again as the weather heats up in my part of the world. Last night I had another of my recurrent dreams of walking naked to a stake. I woke up with an erection that could drill through a wall then surrendering to the feeling I lit a fire in my fire bowl, roasted my butt while I humped a post, cumming in gushes. Man I was hoping I was actually getting burnt at the stake for that ultimate fantasy.

If someone had offered to be my executioner right then and there I would have gladly agreed to walk outside to a stake and be burnt to ashes and dust.
fireboots
 
I last posted here in June, but once again I've had some on-line role play sessions that got me thinking about this question. My ultimate fantasy is just that, a fantasy. The problem is that that fantasy has become so strong that almost the only thing that gets me off is visualizing my own execution by burning at the stake nude. I fire-play regularly, but I do play safely, only lightly singeing my butt and cock over a fire-bowl. Last night it was different, I really wanted to feel the heat like I had in some of my more extreme fire-play sessions. Still planning on playing safe I decided to experiment with a form of fire-play I have done in the past, placing alcohol directly on my skin and lighting it. This can be done very safely if you use very little alcohol at a time and quickly wipe it off with a cold damp cloth. I started a little at a time but wanted more, finally putting a fair bit of alcohol on my butt and lighting it. I was still playing safe, I was in a cool bath with cool running water so I could quickly turn on the shower. Well when I lit the alcohol I let it burn more than I should have, I was truly enjoying the pain, but fortunately my self-presevation senses held and I doused the flames before any real damage was done.

The thing is that the pain totally aroused me, I was briefly visualizing my own death by burning at the stake and loving it. I'm wondering if this is why so many people playing with auto-erotic hanging end up actually dying, when they originally they were looking for a twisted way for a sexual release, and weren't planning on committing suicide. In my case, what I was doing couldn't have killed me, but it could have done serious damage. The last thing I want from my fiery obsession is to become a burn cripple, which is why I play safe, but there are definitely people out there that have such a powerful obsession, that they do go all the way, choosing to give into their fantasy at the same time they choose to give up on life.
 
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I will not answer your initial question from the start of the thread. But I want to give some hints concerning your obsession.

Burning alive like you said - is everything else but not sexy or erotic - actual death in general isn't it. It's just endless and intense pain and agony far beyond you can imagine and it would last minutes (for you an eternity) until you loose consciousness finally. You hide the reality in your fantasy. Your dangerous experiments are never ever comparable to burns of third or forth degree.

Fulfilling its own ultimate death wish is not driven by the way you will die but by death itself - changing from existence to non-existance. You do not feel death nor you can't look from a third perspective seeing you burning "nicely" like in your dreams. And you can't take the "experience" of burning with you because if you die - there is nothing.

A fantasy is not an actual death wish that you should strictly differentiate.

Concerning auto-erotic hanging - you should look here (http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Erotic_asphyxiation) why it sometimes ends up fatal. If you get more and more addicted to your experiment you risk to suffer sometimes serious injuries. So I suggest you start to try different things that arouse you so you do not get more fixed to only that one fantasy.
 
If the circumstances were right and someone really wanted to kill me i would let them prob die by hanging
 
I wonder how many here will ultimately fufill those fantasies?

I think a few have. Unfortunately many people deal with so much emptiness and pain that fulfilling their ultimate death fantasy becomes their release.

As I said when I started this thread, I was at a very low point in my never ending battle with chronic pain that had severely limited my ability to work and/or enjoy life so my draw to my ultimate fantasy was growing very strong. I was finding that the pleasure and stimulation from my fire-play sessions was providing me with an incredible release from the deep depression I was in. Maybe it reaffirmed my desire to live, but there was a very short period that I was seriously contemplating my ultimate death fantasy last December. Just do it and be done with everything!

Obviously I didn't, nor was I every really close, but everyday hundreds of people choose to end their life on this world, and my guess is more than a few choose a method that fulfills their ultimate death fantasy.

Fireboots
 
under the rite set of circumstances I would . I am not suicidal but the thought of hanging in front of someone turns me on so much I might go thru with it . would be the ultimate submissive act
 
It has been almost exactly a year since I engaged in the very heated role-play that had me seriously thinking about "Fulfilling Your Ultimate Death Fantasy". The thoughts around this always run strong around the darkest time of the year.

I just wrote a fictional, fantasy, account about how this may have played out. Check out the story here:
http://cutedeadguys.net/threads/14740-Fireboot-s-Burning-Stories?p=242983&viewfull=1#post242983


Part of me still wants to fulfill this death fantasy, but then I would be dead and gone and couldn't play anymore. Frankly I have no real desire to end it all despite on going physical and mental health issues. The fantasy, coupled with some very intense "Fire-Play" helps me get by.

Fireboots
 
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de Molay, last master of the Knights Templar, burned at the stake
 
Pity you can't go to the MiddleAges be a heretic them you'd be burned at the stake - don't know if they did it naked
Mine is death in battle by bullet, bayonet or shrapnel - joined Army as young as I could but it hasn't happened yet

Yes, pity that one cannot go back in time. Some of my fantasies and desires I can not fullfill due to what was acceptable in those days is no longer acceptable today and have realized only recently that the only way I can find release for the this torment is to start role playing these desires. In doing this I had to modify and adapt my current stance on wanting the real deal versus roleplay as one cannot travel back in time.
(speaking mainly froma BDSM point of view in relation to my preference for extremity ie. hard-master.com)

As I grow order my ultimate death fantasy has changed, this is a reflection on me maturing as a person and facing the reality that some can never be meet, therefore at this stage of my life is to combine certain desires with a righteous death if possible.

NB:-Righteous death, dying sacrificing your self, doing in battle and etc
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Everyone wants their death to be meaningful so that they will be remembered and their life have had some purpose The sad fact is most peoples lives are not unless they touch others lives and do something good for them of which sacrificing your life is the ultimate As young recruits we were told if you die in a great battle your epitaph is in history even if you body ends up in a grave pit with hundreds of slain comrades
 
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