Do you have trouble relating to people?

[blackonblack13]

I've identified as a necrophiliac for 10 years. Aside from necrophilia, I'm also into cannibalism and sadism. Obviously, I've kept all of this as fantasy, but I find my urges so strong and so much a part of me, that I'm unable to relate to "normal" people or be around them anymore. I'm enrolling in a mortuary science college next year, because being around the dead is the only time when I feel alive and complete, and I'm hoping that being around the dead will save me from completely losing it. I don't feel human anymore.

Does anyone else feel that way? I've never seen this type of discussion here, but I hope it doesn't bother anyone. This is the only safe place to ask these things.

 

[Will Scott]

It is admirable of you to bring up this subject. For myself as I identify mostly as a masochist with sadistic urges I live a totally double life. None of my colleagues/friends have the slightest idea of what is inside my libido. Sitting and watching scenes of torture (as long as they are mature and strong men I might add with others in the room/theater, little do people know that I am sporting a hardon or that my mind is placing me as the victim or torturer. I don't find this particularly burdensome thanks in no small measure to the existence of this and a few other web sites where I can let my dick and balls hang out.

 

[PiercedChest]

Obviously, I've kept all of this as fantasy, but I find my urges so strong and so much a part of me, that I'm unable to relate to "normal" people or be around them anymore. Does anyone else feel that way? This is the only safe place to ask these things.

No, I don't find my fantasies stand in the way of relating to people "normally". But I'm VERY happy CDG is a place where I can show my 'dark' sides without shame or restraint.

And yes, the borderline between fantasy and reality is quite clear. So I'm a little worried about your statement you find it hard to be around 'normal' people.
I hope you can satisfy your needs in a safe and harmless way without losing contact with other people who csn't follow you there.

 

[blackonblack13]

No, I don't find my fantasies stand in the way of relating to people "normally". But I'm VERY happy CDG is a place where I can show my 'dark' sides without shame or restraint.

And yes, the borderline between fantasy and reality is quite clear. So I'm a little worried about your statement you find it hard to be around 'normal' people.
I hope you can satisfy your needs in a safe and harmless way without losing contact with other people who csn't follow you there.

I try very hard to satisfy this side of myself, without crossing any lines. CDG does help a lot, but I wish I had people IRL that I could confide in. Everyone I know would probably try to exorcise me or something if they found out about the kinds of things I get off to. I guess it's just very lonely feeling this way and being attracted to these things. I think my loneliness and feelings of isolation from people just feed the fantasies and make them stronger, which makes everything worse. It's a vicious cycle.

 

[Meatpie]

I'm unable to relate to "normal" people or be around them anymore. I'm enrolling in a mortuary science college

You are still young, can you get a boner from alive dudes?

By the time you are 30 I guarantee you will not be able to get an erection from anything except fit dead handsome guys.

The most shocking thing about necrophilia is that even if you get a morgue job you still won't be satisfied because you will have to cut a lot of corpses that are not to your liking - obese women, decomposed grannies & pregnant women.

You can work 50 years in a morgue and still get disgusted by rotters.

 

[Pyro Yoshi]

I relate to other people just fine. Sure, I've got my fantasies, but they don't get in the way of day to day life.

 

[blackonblack13]

You are still young, can you get a boner from alive dudes?

By the time you are 30 I guarantee you will not be able to get an erection from anything except fit dead handsome guys.

The most shocking thing about necrophilia is that even if you get a morgue job you still won't be satisfied because you will have to cut a lot of corpses that are not to your liking - obese women, decomposed grannies & pregnant women.

You can work 50 years in a morgue and still get disgusted by rotters.

I'm actually a girl. I'm still attracted to people who are alive, but it's hard for me to become/stay aroused. I hope it's not TMI, but when I do have sex, I often just have to pretend that they're dead. I've even gone as far as buying a body bag for them to lie in/on while we do it and having them soak in a cold bath beforehand.

Yeah, I'm not looking forward to all the bloaters, but I'm hoping that I'll still get some satisfaction. I think I'll go crazy if it doesn't turn out like I want it to. Even if they're gross, I feel like I have to be around the dead.

I'm glad to see that others aren't having the same issues relating to people, but it makes me feel pretty shitty that I'm unable to function like you guys.

 

[ukon]

I think that we would all get a shock at the number of people with dark fantasies if they were totally honest , I dont think it is that uncommon . Sure the intensity of the fantasy varies from person to person just as the type of fantasy does. CDG affords a way for those willing, to express and discuss their fantasies, fetishes etc and meet like minded people . I myself have no problems relating to people and don't consider myself a necro though looking at images of dead people is not disturbing to me and I find that some are really hot. I have no problems differentiating Fantasy from Normal life , I love to fantasize but that is all it is. Hope that whatever you do assist you in dealing with your situation is successful.

 

[Mattai]

I'm actually a lawyer, so would anyone be surprised to find out I have fantasies about having sex with dead bodies? Oh, probably not. Lot's of people don't think I'm human.

All kidding aside, for me, its just one facet of who I am, it doesn't define who I am or overtake the other things that make up who I am. I don't think any sexual interest would do that to me, at this point. I'm 42 (though look mid-30's I'm told), so perhaps I've just grown to have a greater perspective on life than I used to have.

It wasn't always that way. The first time I had sex was in a funeral home where I used to visit a guy 10 years older (I was 15, he was 25) who worked there who let me see the bodies so long as I did things with him. At that time, at that age, it was all about the sexual gratification, and the satisfaction of the urges to see and sometimes touch, dead bodies. I (thankfully) grew beyond that constant need, however, as I got older and discovered other things in life.

Now that I've shared far, far too much about myself, I hope it somehow helps you have hope that perhaps there may be more to life than the urges and interests that almost seem to have become obsessions at this stage in your life. The interests may always be there, and that's okay, so long as you keep them in perspective and make it a part of who you are, and not all of who you are.