Lots of people betrayed me

[PiercedChest]

I thnink relatives is the worst, followed by boyfriend betraying you.

I'd rank a boyfriend betraying me FAR higher than relatives doing so. Relatives are thrown on you by fate, but an intimate relationship with another guy, both voluntarily engaging in trust and sex, ... that would really tear my heart out.

I've seen families torn apart over money, over property or even petty arguments. When I was a kid I was never able to understand why grown up people with children etc, living together separate. Now I know and it's an awful feeling.

I've seen families (brothers/sisters) go to crap over things like that, and didn't really care, but my heart bleeds for all those couples (gender immaterial) who decide to end their relationship in bitterness, especially if children are involved. I really do sympathize with you in your short fling of happiness and awful disillusion within a few weeks. Life shouldn't be like that.

 

[Meatpie]

I'd rank a boyfriend betraying me FAR higher than relatives doing so. Relatives are thrown on you by fate, but an intimate relationship with another guy, both voluntarily engaging in trust and sex, ... that would really tear my heart out.

It's killing me, I can't sleep.

Mental torment all night and it doesn't go away night after night.

 

[deaddirty]

Sad to see that so many guys here have had lives dominated by betrayals.
That's not been my experience. I've had my share of let-downs (ie quite a lot), a few bad enough to count as betrayals. But what I try to stick to is the knowledge that most peope I know haven't done that - and some have been reliable, trustworthy, gone out of their way to stand by me. That's the side I try to live p to - we've got to, otherwise we become just part of the problem!
Hugs to all, especially Meatpie.

 

[Meatpie]

Thank you.

Maybe you are just not the relationship type DD...

 

[laserdude]

Meatpie ... I don't 'know' you like a lot of guys out here. So, This may not mean as much coming from me, since you don't know me. But I truly mean this - I have read your posts for months and I believe you to be a genuinely good and smart person! You gave your heart and it has been trampled ... you do not deserve that .. I am not going to pretend to know how you feel .. Just to say you deserve to be happy and I am sorry that you are dealing with this!

 

[Meatpie]

Thank you once again, I appreciate your support.

My problem is that I can't get it hard from an alive dude unless he is he is extremely handsome, fit with beautiful feet.

Unfortunately such gay guys are rare here.

I've tried with other "ordinary" dudes they lie naked and beg "Fuck me meatpie, nail me, torture me" but I can't. I can't even get it slightly hard.

That's why I don't easily get over a breakup because such guys are as I said rare and hard to find, date and get them to relax and let you fuck them.

I met a tall basketball player who lay stark naked for me and let me do anything I wanted with his body, I almost couldn't believe it.

I sniff their socks, sniff their sneakers, eat their toes, even bathe the guys, dress undress it's crazy wild intense.

I am only after tall ripped athletes, I am one crazy motherfucker and I hate it when we have to break up because of a girl!

 

[yalada]

I only recently felt betrayed.. Well literally less than an hour ago. I really don't understand people. My best friend has suddenly and without explanation told me that he wants nothing to do with me. It was funny because he seemed weird when I spoke to him on the phone earlier. Then at 1:30 in the morning I get a text saying that he no longer wished to continue our friendship. I asked him for a reason but he would not give one. Honestly I feel sick right now. He removed me from all his social media and asked me not to contact him further. I guess I can go one of two ways 1) stop making friends if in the end all you feel is hurt and betrayal. Or 2) move on and try to find new friends.. I want to say the latter but right about now it feels much more like the former. I think if I at least knew what I had done it would be better. Here is hoping sleep will come before its time to get up. I feel a little better having shared this.

 

[Meatpie]

Maybe he found out that you are a necro and got scared?

 

[drmngofmybhdng]

Meatpie, you being necro only makes me love you more!!!

 

[Meatpie]

WTF, why?

 

[beagle]

Thanks

 

[cbtedge]

When i came out my friends, who were almost all Christians, turned against me. Some thought I should kill myself. Some thought I should be castrated. But all hated me for being gay. This was in the midwest. I left the area, picked up my life, and was able to insulate myself from those who hated me for being gay; Christians. I never forgot nor ever forgave them nor Christians. I refuse to do anything good on behalf of any Christian. hate really does make you powerful. Honor your friends who are kind to you in life, but always hate those who hate you. Let it burn like a cold ember and never forget those who have betrayed you, not once, not ever.

 

[djbear]

Meatpie, I am not sure why you have been subject to the betrayal you have been and from so many different quarters. I am glad you are strong and hope you find the right people wjo will treat you well.

 

[Meatpie]

Judging by the number of replies this thread is getting lots of people have been betrayed by friends & family...it is somewhat of a relief knowing you are not alone in your misery.

The worst was when I found out that my boyfriend lied to me, when I asked him why he said..."I was afraid you were gonna dump me etc"

Stupid cunt, I was miserable yes and lonely but he was fucked too.

He is 20 and thinks it will always be easy to find another guy but he is so wrong...

As you get older it gets harder and harder to trust other dudes, he will learn his lesson soon enough I am happy that I learnt mine.

At least I have cool friends who supported me when I was really down...

 

[Lycanthrope]

When i came out my friends, who were almost all Christians, turned against me. Some thought I should kill myself. Some thought I should be castrated. But all hated me for being gay. This was in the midwest. I left the area, picked up my life, and was able to insulate myself from those who hated me for being gay; Christians. I never forgot nor ever forgave them nor Christians. I refuse to do anything good on behalf of any Christian. hate really does make you powerful. Honor your friends who are kind to you in life, but always hate those who hate you. Let it burn like a cold ember and never forget those who have betrayed you, not once, not ever.

I am so sorry to hear about what you went through. I do consider myself a Christian as I believe that there was a man named Jesus who walked the earth and did good things and inspired people. Whether he is really God incarnate or not, doesnt really bother me.

True that many Christians hate gays and more so if you are a gay necro but the world isnt simply black and white, Christians vs the world. May peace and love guide your life. I try to live my life according to Christian principles of love thy neighbour, compassion and non judgement (Jesus dined with the social rejects, the tax collectors, whores, etc).

 

[StrokMcToke]

Betrayal is truly cruel. Especially when you possess secrets that you would dare not tell others. But what I've learned through the years is, we must all put on a mask for our own survival. It's how I got through my tough events. Always have a mask on. The best mask I recommend is a good smile. Always smile, it is the best defense as long as you never break it.

 

[toptuan]

Then I started blackmailing him and to be honest it felt good hearing him begging me on the phone not to destroy him.

I live in the Land of Buddha. So, the above statement and everything afterwards would sound like "Karma" to millions.

 

[Art Of War]

Meat Pie,

Thank you very much for sharing this as this has striked me on a personal note.

I finally confided in my friends a few years back about what I mean I when I said I like people who can stand up to me to being code for my dark desires, I omitted the really really dark desires (which I grateful for in hindsight) and when shit hit the fan with a few of these friends they proceeded to spill their guts to other people I knew.

It hurt so bad, I honestly thought that they would not be the types of people not to spill after things went south.

I have learnt from that lesson never to share that side with anyone unless they share the same mutual interests.

Why do people only keep secrets until you have a falling out and then use betray your confidence?

I have also learnt the hard way never to trust them again until they prove to me that they have changed in tangible ways, as I have the mistake of trusting and forgiving these types of people as they are most likely to start once again when they have another bone to pick with you.

The healing process takes a long time, I liken it to recovering from post traumatic stress disorder.

Once again thank you sharing and I hope your heart and spirit recovers fully in time.