Ever Scare Yourself?

[stackedblack]

I am new to the forum, I just found out about it a few days ago and it intrigued me and scared me at the same time.

I was really reluctant to join but at the same time I could not stop myself from coming back again. I kind of feel like I am realizing something really dark about myself and it is kind of scary. I have never had an interest in most of the stuff on the forum, maybe a bit of really rough sex that bordered on the edge of rape, but this site is pretty extreme.

I found myself getting bored with most porn and how lame it is, I started getting interested in beastiality, incest fantasy, fisting and they all lost their luster after a while, so it really kind of makes me nervous about what could possibly come after this, even though I am still new to it.

Did anyone else go through something like this and really wonder what's next?

 

[keyman419]

It is an interesting concept for sure. I am ready to have the lights put out on myself and it just seems right for me. Still need the right situation to make it happen for sure. It is scary but when you are ready, it will make sense. Seems like there is something for everyone on the internet. Hope to find it soon.

 

[stustustugoo]

life is to short, just accept and love yourself for EVERYTHING you are and whatever makes you, YOU.

 

[stackedblack]

Keyman you're right, there is something for everyone online lol.

stustustugoo, I've seen some of your responses on the forums before; I really like how accept the unknowns of life as they are. I bet you're fun to be around IRL

 

[choke_me82]

if you are interested I would love to die for a man pleasure

 

[toptuan]

Never confuse thoughts vs. acting upon those thoughts, and you'll be alright. When you start confusing/mixing the two, it's time to back off and take a reality check. If, after several go-arounds, you can't keep from mixing/confusing the two, time for abstinence in both thought and deed.

 

[Wormmon2006]

I am new to the forum, I just found out about it a few days ago and it intrigued me and scared me at the same time.

I was really reluctant to join but at the same time I could not stop myself from coming back again. I kind of feel like I am realizing something really dark about myself and it is kind of scary. I have never had an interest in most of the stuff on the forum, maybe a bit of really rough sex that bordered on the edge of rape, but this site is pretty extreme.

I found myself getting bored with most porn and how lame it is, I started getting interested in beastiality, incest fantasy, fisting and they all lost their luster after a while, so it really kind of makes me nervous about what could possibly come after this, even though I am still new to it.

Did anyone else go through something like this and really wonder what's next?

To be perfectly honest, yeah it sometimes does scare me. I cam usually take it in stride, but I sometimes worry about "who I am in the dark" (when no one could see or know what I'd do). But as far as I'm concerned, having places like this is healthier than trying to repress those thoughts and desires. Sure, there's a limit (thoughts vs actions), but you have to accept the darker aspects of yourself lest they go grow more powerful.

 

[curiousmind]

I agree; embrace yourself, the fact it scares you might be part of the appeal/the excitement.

 

[fireboots]

Yes I do sometimes scare myself. In December when I was going through a particularly rough patch I was finding my urge to fulfill my ultimate fantasy was getting very strong. I was doing serious fire-play sessions, causing some nasty blisters on my butt and reveling in the pain. I was engaged in some very heavy on-line role play with someone along the same lines of burning to death. I got over it, but the real scary part was during those fire-play session I experienced some of the most powerful orgasms I've had in years, so strong that I really thought I needed to get burnt to Death! The thought of actually fulfilling my ultimate fantasy of getting burnt at the stake nude is never far away.

 

[ericbblawson]

My simple answer is, yes.