Gonna be a bit before I post again...

[m3m1]

For the guys out there who like my stories (all three of you!), just an FYI--I'm not going to be posting for a couple of weeks. I'll still be online occasionally, but I won't have much time to write.

My partner of 12 years and I are separating. Two years ago, we let a younger man in a bad relationship move in with us. Within two months, he and my partner told me they were in love. My partner wanted to try a polygamous relationship. I loved him dearly--I still do--and agreed so that I wouldn't lose him. The younger man, however, can't stand me and has no inhibitions about displaying that fact in numerous petty ways. I moved out of the master bedroom six months ago, thinking that it would help. It hasn't. I have become desperately lonely by myself in this little room. My partner told me not to make him choose between the two of us, so I'm not. I'm just leaving. We talked it over this weekend, and while I'm devastated emotionally, I think it's for the best.

Sorry for the rant. Point is, I'm going to be busy finding a new place to live and getting a new household set up. I won't have much time for writing, but I'll be back ASAP.

 

[Meatpie]

You are weak. How old are you?

Stick with CDG this is incredibly difficult post as much as you want.

Gay relationships don't last, I've seen it over and over again.

Hope you are not feeling suicidal.

Talk to me.

If I were you I would make sure the younger slut remembers me for the rest of his life, complete annihilation I will make him run a mile when he sees me.

 

[m3m1]

I am 44 and I am decidedly NOT suicidal. I am hurt and I am pissed. My ex knows he fucked up and he is paying for it, literally. None of that changes the fact that I love the man.
The reason I'm not posting is not because my felling were hurt; I'm busy finding a place to live and digging out all my shit this little bitch has hidden away somewhere.

 

[Meatpie]

I apologize.

Did you cry?

 

[m3m1]

Yes--a long time ago. I'm done crying.

 

[Mike803]

Do what you need to do. We'll be here when you get back...

 

[stustustugoo]

im so sorry, if my man did that to me id be devastated, but id kill the piece of shit who ruined my life!
sounds like u should make yourself that younger dudes worst nightmare

 

[Meatpie]

I couldn't agree more.

 

[m3m1]

The kid has some mental issues. The very sad fact is that he's getting everything he wants and he's still living in a nightmare. And I plan to help it along.

My ex will be visiting me frequently. I plan on making my new home a bower of peace and rest when he comes over. He's going to groan and shrivel up whenever he has to leave to go home to the chaotic mess he'll be living in. He's gonna see EXACTLY what he's given up.

I don't get violent. But I do manage to get even.

 

[ukon]

I am saddened to hear of your situation but pleased that you are handling it in a sensible manner , all the best and take care . Will be waiting for more of your stories in your own time and also pleased you will still be using CDG.

 

[PiercedChest]

I'm sorry to hear about your sad situation.
I hope you'll find new happiness elsewhere.

 

[bindiboi]

I am sorry this has happened to you. I understand more than you could know. A very similar thing happened to me years ago. I was in love, more than I could have ever thought possible. We were together for about 1 1/2. We lived together at college. Those were the happiest times of my life. My life was shit till I met him. We didn't have a lot of problems, but wanted to try and spice things up. We met a guy through a friend of ours. He seemed cool. He was also quite an animal in bed. James (my BF at the time), was more into that aspect than I was. After just a few days, I was having lunch with James when he told me he was in love with him. With absolute rage I stormed to the dorm, burst into our room, grabbed the asshole by the collar and threatened to throw him out of our 4th floor window. James managed to get me to let him go. I told him if I ever saw him (the guy, not James) again, I would kill him. James ran off with him, for about 3 days. After that, he returned to tell me that the guy dumped him. Said, "too much drama.". The damage had been done though. James told me he no longer loved me. Pathetic thing is, we remained roommates for another year in college.

That event changed me. I used to be a naive, optimistic, trusting guy. It turned me cold, empty, and hollow. I don't trust easily, and I am pessimistic. Eventually, I did get over him. DO NOT let him do to you what James did to me.

I know I don't know you, I don't believe we have ever spoken, but if you need someone to talk to, PM me anytime. I do know what this feels like.

 

[m3m1]

Thank you, all of you. By this point, I just want this done with. I'm ok with being on my own, but the thought of dealing with all the tiny little details of prying apart two lives that have been intertwined for over a decade exhausts and depresses me.
The thought of finding someplace safe beyond the reach of this tornadic shitstorm I'm living in now fills me with peace and equanimity. I just want it done...

 

[TallBlond1]

Hi m3m1, just a P.S. to these thoughts. When I broke up with a live-in boyfriend years ago, I too knew I didn't want to continue living under the same roof. I moved out. Suicide wasn't ever even remotely considered, but I knew I'd never been that emotionally low before. As traumatic as it was, getting control over my own life back, and having that first night in my own place, allowed me the best sleep I'd had in a month. Within a couple of months I was happily seeing someone new.

 

[Destroymykok]

Sorry you're having such a rough time m3m1. Learn from the past & look forward to creating a new future for yourself. I hope you get yourself sorted quickly.I like your philosophy of dont get mad get even. Ive been on both sides I've been the one thats lost a longterm partner & regret to say I've also been a little shit that's broken a relationship apart,something I'm not proud of & was one hell of a mistake. Anyway you take care & I really hope things pick up for you

 

[Frost]

I know how hearts can change. I've been on both sides of this. I was dumped and cheated on, and I've been the cheater and the dumper. I only hope now that the scars I bear and the mistakes I've made that scarred others will make me a better person, one who is wiser and stronger, who has learned lessons and paid the price. Hope you're getting on well. This shit is never easy.