Well not for real, no! Are you serious, suicidal/depressed? If so, there are people on this site who can probably help you much better than me. All I'd say is that life is short and death's a long time, plenty of time for it in its' own time without rushing it along. (I hate that, it sounds too glib and trite, you have my permission to kill me!). If you want to talk, you can send me a private message, but it will probably be more drivel like this, hang on in there bud, someone will be along who's wiser than me. In the meantime, lots of love and hugs and I care really!