The Fear Studio (Chapter 4)
The White Jogging Suit
The sky was clear that night, but the air felt like a trap. I had spent six months preparing for this hunt, six months watching the world, dissecting it to find perfection. And perfection, I had found in LƩo.
He was there, on the sidewalk, a white jogging suit contrasting with the twilight. I had spotted him two months ago. He was leaving a club, the music still echoing in the air, but his expression was already elsewhere. He didn't look happy. He was alone, lost in his thoughts. That's what had drawn me in, that contrast between the energy of the place and the emptiness in his eyes.
I had prepared everything. No improvisation. No mistakes. No ambiguity. The workshop was ready, an old car garage. The light, a cold, pale halo, illuminated a single chair, positioned in the center. I had set up the camera, a Nikon D850. I had checked the sound, a hypercardioid microphone, to capture the slightest breath, the slightest heartbeat.
The wait had been long, but he was there. 4:30 in the morning. The hour of flight, when the city quiets down and the angels of the night return to the sky. He was standing, hands in his pockets, his head bowed, his gaze blank. I approached him, softly, without a sound. A breath of icy wind. He didn't see me, he didn't feel me. The black bag fell over his head. I saw his muscles tense, his breathing stop. No screams, no struggle. Just a brief resistance before he collapsed. I loaded him into the van, where my accomplice was waiting.
I removed the bag when we arrived at the garage. His eyes were wide open, but he wasn't really seeing. He was seeing the horror. He started to tremble. The contrast between the white, immaculate jogging suit and the dirt of the concrete floor was magnificent. "You're going to be very useful to me, LƩo." His mouth opened, but no sound came out. He just swallowed, his eyes fixed on me. He was perfect. He was not just a man. He was an unfinished work of art, a blank canvas that I was about to sublimate. I am not a monster. I am an artist, and he was my most beautiful creation.
The truth, for LƩo, manifested as an absolute silence. He wasn't screaming, wasn't struggling anymore. His body, frozen in the chair, was just a shell subject to an internal cataclysm. His hands, on his thighs, clenched until his knuckles turned white. The fine beads of sweat on his forehead highlighted a suffering that went beyond screams. It was pure fear, without artifice, without escape. The very essence of his deepest fear.
I stepped back, a necessary distance to appreciate the painting as a whole. The white jogging suit, once a symbol of his anonymity, shone under the fluorescent light, making every fold, every muscle tension, incredibly visible. It was a blank canvas that I had sullied with horror. I didn't speak. I didn't need to. The work spoke for itself. I simply adjusted the camera, moving the tripod a few centimeters to the left to capture the perfect reflection of the light in his fixed eyes. The microphone, meanwhile, captured barely audible noises: the rustle of his jogging suit against the seat, the disordered rhythm of his breathing, and the frantic pounding of his heart that hammered the silence.
"Magnificent, Léo," I murmured, my voice so low it was almost inaudible. "You are⦠perfect." He raised his head, slowly, and his eyes settled on me. It was not a look of hatred or defiance. It was the eye of a hunted animal that has abandoned all will to flee. He saw the end, not mine, but his. And that silent acceptance was the culmination of my work. I pressed the record button. The scene was complete. The truth was in motion.
The tape ran in silence. My gaze was fixed on the screen, where every part of LƩo's suffering was magnified. His body, once so tense, began to relax. Not like a liberation, but like the final fall of a puppet whose strings have just been cut. The white jogging suit, immaculate, suddenly seemed too big for him, like an improvised shroud. This was no longer panic, no longer fear. It was a total acceptance, a resignation. The liquid I had given him was just a trigger, the key that had opened the door to his soul so that the truth could escape. And that truth was emptiness, the certainty of the insignificance of his existence in the face of mine, in the face of my work.
I put the camera down on the floor and approached him. I placed my hand on his shoulder again. This time, he didn't flinch. He just stared blankly, a small, sad smile on his lips. It was the end of the scene.
"Don't worry, LƩo," I whispered. "You are perfect. You are immortal."
His eyes lost their shine, the little light they contained went out. His breathing became slower, weaker, until it disappeared. The silence returned, but this time, it was heavy, thick. The tape continued to run for a few minutes, recording the stillness of the finished work, the perfection of the moment. When I turned it off, I knew I had my masterpiece. The truth, in all its beauty and brutality, was in the can.
The silence fell like a curtain on the stage. The work was complete. I leaned over LƩo's body. The white jogging suit, which had symbolized his innocence, was now the shroud of a budding artist. I felt no remorse, no pity. Only a deep satisfaction, that of the creator who contemplates his most beautiful success.
The work now had to be preserved. The body, that ephemeral sculpture, was just one step. LƩo's immortality resided in the tape. I took a large moving blanket, carefully folded in a corner of the workshop, and wrapped the body. Every gesture was measured, respectful, as if I were sheltering an object of great value. The goal was not to hide him, but to protect him from the outside world, to make him an absolute secret, a relic.
My accomplice, silent as a shadow, appeared. He didn't ask me any questions; he knew that perfection had a price. Together, we loaded the body into the van. The journey was short, to an isolated vacant lot, miles from the city. The hole had been dug the day before, deep and anonymous. The cold ground, the heavy earth, all of it was part of the process.
Back in the workshop, the only thing that remained was the tape. I watched a few moments of the masterpiece. LƩo's expression, the tension in his body, the truth that sprang from his eyes. It was sublime. I put the tape in a fireproof safe, out of sight, out of mind. The world would never see the work in its entirety. It existed only for me, and that's what made it so perfect.
The perfection of the work with LƩo was an intoxication that could not last. Once the tape of the ultimate truth was safely stored, a void set in. The hunger returned. The hunger of the creator for a new canvas, a new source of raw emotion. I put myself back on the hunt. Not in a rush, but with the patience of a predator who knows its territory. My days and nights became a long inspection of the city. CafƩs, libraries, public transport, deserted parks. I wasn't looking for a particular face, but a soul, a flaw. Someone who, like LƩo, carried a hidden beauty within them, a fragility that the world had not yet perceived.
I observed hundreds of faces, hundreds of lives. Some were too loud, others too lively. Lifeless faces didn't interest me. I was looking for a shadow, a reflection of an inner anguish.
That's when I saw Ćlise.
She was sitting alone on a bench, a book open on her lap, but her eyes weren't reading. They were lost in the void, fixed on the city's gray horizon. Her flamboyant red hair contrasted beautifully with her pale face and dark clothes. She seemed both present and absent, a solitude so deep it was palpable. I saw in her a melancholy that was just waiting to be revealed. A story not of rage or fear, but of pure sadness, of a rare intensity. I started to follow her, to note her habits, to learn her rhythm. She almost always went out alone, didn't mingle with others. She was a museum piece lost in a gallery that was too big.
Perfection had a new name. And this time, the work would be different. It would be all about nuance, silence, and contained tears. A symphony of grief. Ćlise didn't know it yet, but her face would be my next canvas.
The hunt for Ćlise was a meticulous affair, a delicate dance of observation and patience. Her solitude was a fragile thing; a single clumsy move could shatter it, and with it, the raw beauty I sought. My previous works had been about terror, about the sudden shock of a world turned upside down. This one would be different. It would be about quiet despair, about a profound and elegant sadness.
I found a new location. Not a factory or a garage, but an abandoned art gallery. The main room was bathed in the gentle light of a skylight, and the walls, stripped of their paint, had a subtle texture that spoke of decay and forgotten stories. The air was cold, still. It was the perfect canvas for a symphony of grief.
My tools were different this time. A smaller, more discreet camera. The light was natural, unfiltered. I wanted no harshness, no sudden glare to spoil the mood. The microphone was positioned to capture the faintest sigh, the tremor in a whispered word. Every detail was curated to amplify the melancholy, to make her sorrow the centerpiece.
I waited for weeks, learning her schedule. She had a routine, a predictable orbit that she never left. She would walk home from the library every Tuesday night, her head down, lost in her own world. The path was secluded, lined with old trees that cast long, mournful shadows. It was the perfect stage for the final act of her solitude.
I didnāt use a sack. There was no need for a struggle. I simply approached her from behind and placed a hand on her shoulder. Her body flinched, but she didnāt scream. She turned slowly, her eyes wide, but there was no fear in themāonly a weary resignation, as if she had been waiting for something like this all along.
"Don't worry, Ćlise," I whispered, my voice as soft as a breeze. "I'm not here to hurt you. I'm here to understand you. To show the world the beautiful sadness inside you."
She didnāt resist. She didnāt fight. She simply let me lead her to the van. It was as if she were a ghost, moving through a world she no longer inhabited. In the gallery, under the soft, fading light, she sat on a simple wooden stool I had placed in the center of the room. Her red hair, like a splash of defiant color, was the only vibrant thing in the whole space.
"The world saw your sorrow as a flaw," I said, a smile on my lips. "But I see it as art. We're going to create something beautiful, you and I. A symphony of grief."
The red light on the camera began to blink.
Ćlise didn't move. She was the embodiment of stillness, a statue of sadness in the cold studio. The natural light falling from the skylight accentuated the pallor of her face, and her deep green eyes looked a thousand years old. I didn't need to terrorize her. Her grief was already a raging sea. I only had to observe.
I moved closer, then crouched down, level with her face. I placed my hand on her cheek, cold and wet. She didn't move. Her body was a shell. I whispered, "You know, I'm not asking you to love me. I'm just asking you to show me the beauty of your sadness." Her eyes flickered, and she began to cry, silently, her warm tears trickling onto my hand. It was sublime. The emotion was pure, raw, without a trace of fear.
I stepped back and continued filming her. Her body was a poem. Her hands, which had been resting on her knees, had tightened. Her mouth had twisted, and her eyes, which weren't looking at me, filled with an ocean of tears. I saw her sadness, her loneliness, and I knew this was my life's work. I let her cry, without disturbing her. I let her express herself. I watched, motionless, fascinated by the beauty of her grief.
Then, after what seemed like an eternity, her tears began to slow, and her breathing returned to normal. She looked up and met my gaze. There was no more sadness, only acceptance. She smiled, a sad smile, and said, "You know, I've never been more alone than in this moment." It was the end. The end of grief. The beginning of perfection.