Do you have (or suspect you have) a personality disorder?

[Dimoetes]

I never formally studied psychology but its an arra of great interest to me. But I would rather ask people questions than simply reading studies. If you have, or suspect you have, a mental health condition, which one is it? How does it affect your life? I'm fascinated by how our minds work.

 

[TheUnforgiven]

I've been diagnosed by a psychiatrist with Bipolar Disorder II when I was still living in Italy (I've also been diagnosed with GAD and paranoia).
It's hell: I rarely have hypomanic episodes; I swing between normal and depressed mood mainly.
Sometimes I'm so depressed that I start having strong suicidal thoughts.
I never tried to kill myself though, I'm too coward... but I hope to die soon.
Some days I really ache for death, you know...

I think 2026 will be my last year: I'm 37 and the thought of other 40 years like this is scaring me... more than actually death.
I really hope someone will kill me or I finally find the courage to end it all by December...