A Kill what I always Dream

[baddiunit]

Bijina babu,

One of my favorite person .

He was 6'3", just 110lbs. He had a very big v shaped pointed Adams Apple, big and deep jugular notch, He had clearly visible pulse both sides of his Adams Apple, his jugular veins in both sides are clearly noticeable, clearly visible collar bones, all of his ribs were visible even when he was standing too. Always there was an up down up down movement just under his left nipple. There's no need to use stethoscope to feel his heartbeat, it was clearly visible under his left nipple. When he was laying down his stomach sunk deep inside, a big ribcage. Practically there was no muscle in his chest, only a thin layer of skin on his chest bones. I hugged him many times, i could feel his heart while hugging him, he always told that he can't survive more days. He wanted to die soon so that he can get relief from his extremely skinny body. He always tells me to push a screwdriver straight in his heart and hug him tightly when he will be living his skinny body. I think he has very little more time left to survive. He may have his final stroke any time in near future. Many times I played with his Adams Apple and chest bones. He acts as a dead body but his heartbeat is clearly visible under his left nipple. And pulses clearly visible both sides of his Adams Apple too. I love to feel his neck pulse and heartbeat when he lays down on my lap shirtless. U can see all of his ribs and collar bones clearly. And his belly sinks deep making a big ribcage. His whole torso looks awesome when he lays down on my lap. Many times I pushed his stomach more and feel his back bone behind his stomach. He never deny or complaints about any pain. His Adams Apple looks very loose, I can Practically touch my fingers behind his Adams Apple holding his voice box in my hand.

One day Bijina babu was laying on my lap I was shaking his Adams Apple and touching his ribs and collar bones, he held my hand tightly and asked you have to do it now, I asked why he told I want peace and relief from this torturous life. He put my hand on his heart and told just push a knife here please. I hugged him tightly and said so soon? . He told firmly NOW. He gave me a thin but sharp knife and told, now please.

I placed that just above his heart, two inches right to his left nipple , blank place between his 5th and 6th rib. Holding the knife in that position I kissed his chest bones, throat and Adams Apple many times. He touched my face and said bye for forever. I kissed lastly in his forehead and pushed the knife down. He was still holding my face. A word came from his mouth 'ahhhhhhh', it's not cry of pain, look like he was very excited and happy, he was smiling, I can observe his heartbeat became terriblly irregular and slowed down, moments after his visible veins and arteries in neck area disappeared as a result in drastic decrease in blood pressure, there was no blood flow outside as the knife was still in the wound blocking any space for blood to come out, but internally it was bleeding heavily. He bairly able to speak "my vision became blurry, I can not see you, I think it's my last word, please donate my body in medical college, so that the students can see my internal organs, my body will be a perfect sample as there is practically no fat and very little muscle in my body." after 30/40 seconds his Adams Apple started moving rapidly he was trying to breath in through mouth, his eyes started rolling back and just a minute after his body became motionless completely. His eyes and mouth still open.

 

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That day a knock on my door, I opened the door, Bijina babu was standing in front of me. I got surprised. He told i know, that you know me well, and you always think about my body and my early death. I told oh no no. He told, yes Bhai i know everything you think about me and how you want to kill me. I got more surprised. He asked can I come in. I told oh yes come come. He came in and hugged me, I can feel his bones in chest. He told, yes I know everything about your thoughts and come to you to give my body to you, do what ever you want. I got more surprised. I closed the door, he hugged me again tightly this time, now I can feel all of his ribs. He told still holding me please don't react as strangers, I told oh no no. He told you can do anything with this body now. I was not recovered from my shock. He told me see, stop behaving like this, if you don't treat me as you think always, I will go and sleep on railway line and be a news only by tomorrow. Now I hold him tightly, and told please don't tell like this. He told I am yours now onwards, you can do anything every thing you want to do. I hugged him again.

He told don't you want to feel your favorite part of my body, I told you know that? He put off his shirt and placed my hand in his heart and told your favorite part of my body is laying just two inches down here, isn't it? I hugged him again and told yeah , how did you know. He told I know everything about your thoughts. Then he told I know you love my Adams Apple too. You can play with it every time. If you want to cut it, you can do so. I don't have any problem. I asked how much day you are going to stay here he told as long as I am able to live. And if you throw me out, that day will be my last day, simply I will go. And you will get a news of unidentified dead body laying on railway track. I punched hard above his heart and told never say like this again. He told yeah little more hard I will be dead.

That day we hugged each other many times. I asked him, how did you know that I think about you and your death always. He told I will tell this when we meet last time, the day my death Will kiss my heart and take the energy which keeps it beating. I placed my palm on his apex and asked why do you tell about your death always. He smiled and said I have no dreams now, I am still alive only for giving you some pleasure. When you will be full and bored on my life, just tell me once "leave". I will leave you, I will leave this world as I have no other work left. I asked him don't you feel angry when I say that I will kill you. He told oh I know my destiny, I came here only for that only last wish is leave this weakened body inside your tight hug.

I hugged him more tightly and asked will you go now. He told I don't think so. I think you still have some days to enjoy my body. I asked him you looks more boney as i thought. he said, really? i said yeah i didn't imagine that there is absolutely no muscles in your chest or belly area. I knew you are thin and imagined that there will be little muscles in your chest and abs. but I am pleased to see the only a thin layer of skin on your chest bones and abdomen. He asked is there any problem with it. i said that a pleasant problem for you, rest of the world will be sad hearing that you are in high risk of heart stroke while sleeping and no chance of survive then. He smiled and said and you know i am not agreeing with the rest of the world. this is a very nice news for me. then he said but i wish to get my final stroke inside your hug, i wish my body become motionless in your arms.

I was sitting on my bed he laid down on my lap, I can practically see all his chest rib bones and can notice his beating heart under skin clearly under and right side of his left nipple. I kissed his heart beat, he said i wish when my final moment will come please kiss like this before it beat last time. i smiled. I hold his arm and said why did you become so lanky ? Only veins visible everywhere in your body it looks like only bones veins and skin. he smiled and said i have no problem with that i am already prepare to leave this body any time death can come and take that energy which runs my pump.

His head hung back from my lap i can see all his exposed neck area. He had a big Adam's Apple perfect V shaped pointed Adam's Apple. Two thick jugular veins with regular pulses clearly noticeable both side of his Adam's Apple. His Adam's Apple moves slowly down with each of his breaths. Some up down movement in his jugular notch too. Clearly noticeable low Jaw line starting from his ears. clavicles are so clear that those are looking out side of body.

I Hold one clavicle touch my both fingers under it. he smiled and told you practically put your hand inside my shoulder. I asked can I have a bite of your Apple. He told I already gave it to you. You can enjoy whatever manner you want. I hold his Adam's Apple in my mouth it was still moving with his breaths. I asked why its moving always. He told you can stop it . I pressed both sides of his Adam's Apple. He smiled and said I know What you want to do. I asked what ? He told You want to insert your fingers behind my Ada's Apple and touch them in back of my throat, isn't it? I said yes but how did you know? He told I know what do you think about my body and what do you want to do with it. I asked is it painful? he told no matter, you do what ever you want to do. I said i don't want to give you pain in any case. He smiled and said yes i know that too you want to finish my life with no/minimum pain. i shacked his Adam's Apple and asked tell me whether you feel pain when i Put my fingers behind your Adam's Apple? He said no I don't feel any pain, You can see my Adam's Apple is too loose. So I don't feel any Pain.

I pushed my fingers more and touched my fingers behind his Adam's Apple , literally I was holding His wind pipe completely in my hand. he tried to speak some thing but can't. He signalled by his hand to release. I released immediately and asked what happened he told you were holding my voice box in your hand , i can't able to speak. i asked is there any problem in Breathing he told no problem with me if you stop the breathing. I told no no i just wanted to know whether you are able to breath when I push my fingers back of your windpipe and hold your voicebox completely in my hand. he answered yes i can breath a little but not freely. I hold his Adams Apple again shaking it. He laughed and asked u like to hold my trachea in your hand too. I told oh yes. He then holding his left chest told ahhh. Then laid motionless leamp his eyes and mouth still wide open. I told close at least your mouth, otherwise mosquito will go inside. He showed no reaction. I closed his eyes and mouth and told, act like this how perfect you can but your life is clearly visible under and right side of your left nipple. And even your neck pulse in jugular veins are clearly visible. So it's impossible to act as a dead body for you. You can stop breathing but can not stop the pump, which is looking like working overtime.

Then I told him ok you can be laying down here, no problem, let me go and prepare some food for us. He still not moving at all only visible heartbeat and pulses are moving parts of his body. I went out side to bring dener for us he was laying there. When I came back he was still laying there. I told enough for today let's have dener . He had no response. I punch little bit to his abdomen and told let's have dener bro. He didn't respond, I checked thoroughly, actually he was sleeping. I awakened him and said, you are still alive bro, let's have some food. We enjoyed the meal together. He helped me to clean the utensils. I told you are my guest so you are not supposed to do these things. He told, I came here for all the life left for me. Do you think I will die so early, so treat me as your partner now onwards. I told oh. I got a dream partner now. Again I hugged him tightly. He also held me tightly and said , you see now days my body became so weak that I can't work outside, I may become a borden on you, what I never want to be. So please don't stop me doing such thing what I can do with this very powerless body, 'I am giving you right to do anything with this body, but you should allow me to work something for you.' I was still holding him tightly and said ok. Then we went to sleep . Then he drag my hand and placed on his heart and told I wish you sleep placing a hand here on my heart and holding my Adams Apple in other hand. I asked why so. He told, I don't know when I'm going to stop. I wish you hold your favorite part of my body while I am leaving. I said I am going to sleep holding your Adams Apple for next years . He smiled and said if I stay alive for such days.


In next morning I wake up he was still in deep sleep I was still holding his Adams Apple which is moving slowly with each of his breath, my hand on his heart too, which is beating regular but I can feel it strong, even I can feel his breath as his bones become more visible with each of his breath in. I kissed his heart once and his throat many times, he wake up with a smile and told wow I am still alive. He told I am surprised that, I am still alive in your hug. I hoped yesterday was my last day . I gave my life in your hands my heart and Adams Apple you were holding, even in dreams you could have become little excited and crush my Adams Apple, I would be finished . I gave my life to the man who always think about my death but still alive. I hugged him again tightly and told I don't know what will be happened with you but I will enjoy you fully. You are my love dear. He smiled and said its shame on you that My heart is still beating after a long night in your arms..
I pressed his jugular notch little hard and said be ready to die now.. he told oh yeah you can strangle me now. I kissed his neck pulses and hold his Adam's Apple in my mouth while pressing my hand in his ribcage. He told press hard and you can reach to my pump. i said your pump is working overtime, he replied yeah i know it needs maintenance but i am so poor to do it. so it may stop any time . i hugged him tightly..

 

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I told Apple should be peaked from the tree when it ripes, he said yes it should be peaked before tree get too old. Then he told I know which Apple you are saying about. He layed down on my lap showing his Adams Apple and told you can peak this Apple right now, my Apple is perfectly ripe now. The tree is about to die soon. I bite his Adams Apple and said I want to enjoy this Apple while it is still on the tree. I said your Adams Apple is perfect, no fat or muscle on it only a very thin layer of skin, anyone can easily see the structure of your voice box, he smiled. I told your Adams Apple is relatively very big and pointed outward v shape, two thik veins in both sides, it always moving up down up down looks awesome. Under your Adams Apple a very big nutch also looks awesome, wish to pore some tomato sauce in it and lick with my tongue. He laughed out loud. He told my life is very short, I am thinking why didn't I come to you earlier. I said kissing his heart, don't say anything about your death yourself, I have only right to kill you, in my imagination and in real too. You should never imagine about your death from now. He smiled and hugged me again tightly. He said but in one condition, you have to tell me a nice story about my death, I want to know what you want to do with me from your voice. I said ok I will kill you everyday in my imagination and tell you how did I finished your life. He told ok it's a deal. Then he took three four long breaths and fell down as dead. I smiled and said this act can't be performed by you. Your pump is visible around the left nipple and both of your jugular veins are dancing with your pump. He didn't respond but I can see all of his signs of life visible very clearly. I pushed my fingers from both sides of his Adams Apple and touched them under his Adams Apple, literally holding his voice box in my hand. I started pulling that slowly. He was passive as before. I said holding his voice box in my hand, shall I pull it out. He has no reaction, I released his voice box and kissed his Adams Apple at pointed v. And started pressing his throat, I can see he was unable to breath, after some time his face turned red but he was laying passive, no reaction. Then I released him. Placed my head above his heart and started listening rhythm of his life, it's regular but a bit loud. For15/20 minutes I listened his heart and he was laying passive all the time. I hugged him tightly and said ok you rest in peace, I have to go office.

Then he told, don't worry about my food for day time, I don't need it, I will have some food only for keep alive this body, we will have diner together. I asked is it the reason for you become only skin on bones. He smiled and said actually this body doesn't need much energy to stay alive.

I asked you were acting as gone, how did you reply. He laughed and said oh no. Then he hugged me again and said I hope this will happen in reality very soon. I acted as pushing something into his heart and said, only I have right to kill you, why are you telling again, he said what was that you pushed into my pump a knife or your favorite weapon screwdriver. I told, you can not feel any difference between a knife or a screwdriver. You can only feel acute pain only for maximum 5/10 second then no idea about what happened to your this body. He told so quickly, I said yes again acting as pushing something into his heart, he just said "akk". And fell down, I said Rest In Peace for now.

I left him laying there shirtless eyes and mouth open stomach sunken deep inside ribcage, acting as a dead body but heartbeat and neck pulse clearly visible. I went out and returned in evening, I found he was sleeping in same position eyes and mouth closed for now. I awakened him and said how was your day. He said just waiting your final touch, nothing happened and how was your day? I told hmm good I was just thinking what to do with you today. He told wow did you killed me in your thoughts today I said yes I did. he asked how? I said this time you met an accident and died on spot. he said oh, but how did that happened, I said actually You were talking over mobile and wondering in street a sppeding vehicle just passed near you, you got imbalanced and fell down a small stone just hit back side of your head, you became motionless instantly no cries no bloodshed just motionless even your eyes still open but no movement, completely still. He said aaw, I don't like to leave like that. i pressed his chest and asked then how? he told its your duty to imagine how will i leave , I will decide from those. I laughed loudly with him. I Hugged him from back and placed my palm on his heart, then pulled his head holding from his chin to back to rest on my shoulder exposing his neck, he asked what are you doing I told, I am just going to cut your wind pipe. He smiled and said as u wish. I acted like pushing some thing into his belly repeatedly then cut his throat above adam's apple . he told have some mercy on this weak thin man please . I told this weak man deserves an early death. He told if it was really, I would vomit blood by now, I told you may be finished by now. I was holding his adam's apple , he asked what now? I said I will enjoy Your Apple now. He bend his neck and rested his head on my shoulder exposing his neck I can see his jugular veins pulse like dancing with rhythm of his pump. I hold one of his jugular veins in my mouth, he asked do you want to drink my blood . i hit his chest and said " I'm not a vampire. he laughed loud and said now what. I said now looks like you are going to have a severe heart attack. He held his chest tightly and leaned back on me completely leamped. I sat down on the bed and said kissing his Adam's Apple Rest In Peace. He smiled and said thank You. I started Pressing his chest like CPR he had no reaction. I hugged him tightly and hold him like that for half an hour. During that I bit his adam's apple and jugular veins so many times. Shacked his Adams apple many times pressed his chest licked his clavicles. He was laying down on my lap passive, completely offering his body to me.

He asked what if i eat a cyanide tablet now? I told, i dont like that for you, You will die within few seconds, nothing will happen just fall and death. I wish you get a fatal stroke and leave your this weak thin skin and bones body while laying on my lap with out any pain. I wish I could record all of your last time movement, your last breathing, final movement of your Adams Apple. He smiled and said, you are allowed to do anything, but promise me, you will never try to save my life in any case. I hugged him tightly and said ok I will let you go whenever you want to. He hugged me tightly and said please don't keep me more days, I came here to have final sleep on your lap but it is looking like you are not in mood to let me go. I kissed his moving Adams Apple and said you already gave me promise of not to do suicide, so you are going to live with me. he smiled and told you cheater. I hold his adams apple tightly and told i am not cheater, i am your killer, you are going to give your life soon. but till then you are my love.