Man, this is very sad ... you're a handsome guy, go on the ballads out there that you forget these things. Life is full of options and suicide can not be one of them, whatever the situation
oh i see. i'm not sure if going to a party would do me much good really. unless they would've been giving out cyanide. or if it was a Jonestown kool-aid party.ok sorry.
I do not know you but I think if your state threatened to do these things I think you should sue them and you would get some compensation, at least in my state it works like this.
And "ballads" I think the correct translation was "parties" or something ... I live in Brazil and here it is full of strange words, so whatever.
well in all honesty, the major reason why i was going to was because they were going to cut my foodstamps. but my psychiatrist is going to write the food stamps administration a note telling them i'm not capable of working so they don't cancel them (i think.. she didn't say she wasn't going to, and i'm pretty sure she will write the note and not have my foodstamps or health insurance be canceled.)If you feel comfortable tell us your other reasons why you want to commit sucide? And why cyanide? We won't judge I personally have deep respect for every person who has shared their death wish with others.
I work in a forensic morgue and when we put a naked dead person on the table with self-inflicted wounds it's sad every time.
do you really think i'll achieve that in life? what i'm looking for?Yes, you sound positive today. Keep it up.
Livingdeadman20, I very much hope you won't commit suicide and please don't do it lightly or on impulse, though ultimately it is your decision and I respect that. Just one suggestion if I may - maybe having something as easy, quick and irrevocable as cyanide in the house would make it too easy to do on impulse, on a bad day or when something goes wrong that you can change if you stick with us? I've got some first-hand experience here, see below.well in all honesty, the major reason why i was going to was because they were going to cut my foodstamps. but my psychiatrist is going to write the food stamps administration a note telling them i'm not capable of working so they don't cancel them (i think.. she didn't say she wasn't going to, and i'm pretty sure she will write the note and not have my foodstamps or health insurance be canceled.)
it'd be pretty fucked up if they allowed that to happen.
there are more reasons too. i can't hold a job because of my mental conditions i suffer from (Autism, ADHD, bipolar disorder, borderline personality disorder and type 1 diabetes) and i also hate the world and don't want to contribute anything to society either.
But i am trying to get on SSI.
I also hate everyone in my life too and been wanting to ditch all of them forever and leave. It has nothing to do with my self or my self esteem.
BUT in all honesty, i would really prefer to live.
In a perfect world, i would live however. If i got SSI, foodstamps, and lived in a safe house in Florida. and meet a nice friend who'd take me on roadtrips often. and I would not have to work or get a job or take orders from anyone.
but i'm not sure if life is going to be like that. It's very possible that it will though.
But if it isn't there's no point in being here.
But the thing is, i don't know if it won't be like the way i want yet, so that's the thing.