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Meatpie
08-12-08, 09:08 PM
I slept with alive guy tonight. I met him on the internet, we went out in the cold, dark night in a horrific Sofia ghetto. He took me to his dirty smelly apartment on the 7th floor.

It was quite an experience.

I live in a good neighbourhood and had no idea he would take me to some ghetto, almost like the Bronx in NYC.

Unfortunately I find jacking off, blowjobs etc boring and I have killing urges when I am close to cute guys. It was the same with my ex.

These thoughts are hard to control. I make sickplans in my head while people think about love and beauty while I dream of death and destruction.

I am one sick fuck.

I would never hurt anyone, just sick thoughts I have and decided to share on this site, I feel better now.

bindiboi
10-12-08, 08:54 AM
You're not the only one. But for me it is my own death I think about, can't get off unless I do. There are a few people though that thinking of their slow and painful death gets me hard. One guy named Eric, who is responsible for the break-up of the only person outside of family I have ever loved, and another guy named Nick who got me caught up into drugs and almost turned me against my family a few years ago.

Meatpie
10-12-08, 09:24 AM
Thats messed up about Eric and Nick. As I understand it you have suicide urges?

Interesting how you get off on your own death, the human brain will never cease to amaze me.

So do you play dead? Taking photos of yourself on a slab with mouth open?

bindiboi
10-12-08, 05:39 PM
No, I don't don't have actual suicide urges although I have fantasized about doing what they do in the movie, Flatliners all the time. (would never do it though, unless it could be done in a medical setting with professionals)
Yeah, I have a hate for Eric and Nick that I didn't know was possible for a human to feel. Especially for Nick. People have told me if it would be worth going to prison for, I never hesitate to say, "YES"!
Kinda hard to play dead while jerking off, LOL. I fantasizes about being on the slab all the time but have no way to take dead naked pics of myself. I would if I had someone who shared my lust though. Then I would be happy to post them here. I am so jealous of those guys from that one site (the name escapes me at the moment) that do all that. I may not have the body they do, but I'd still do that.

Meatpie
10-12-08, 05:49 PM
what site? please post the link when you remember it

I am glad you are not suicidal

bindiboi
10-12-08, 08:49 PM
It's Morbidtech I believe. I would so love to be one of them!

Zephyr203
03-02-09, 11:04 AM
hey meatpie wanna fuck w/ me? imma cute guy!,.

Meatpie
03-02-09, 12:03 PM
pic?

morbididea
03-02-09, 12:39 PM
I often fantasize about my own death too and have even written a short story

Risley Roper
07-06-11, 04:41 AM
*Not his real name,which was actually Geoffrey.
Geoffrey was about 20 yrs old,mixed race,cute,tough face and well muscled.He was straight but regularly visited the flat of a gay man I knew,where he would be entertained with drink,cannabis,various pills,then fucked.(unfortunately not while I was there,and not necessarily while he was still awake).
On one occasion Geoffrey frowned with irritation as he saw me staring at his much improved arms,and then he went on to explain that while in prison the only way he could get a shower was to go for workouts in the gym.
Some years later Geoffrey killed his ex girlfriend and then went back to his flat where he attempted suicide,by the following bizarre and, to me,awesomely erotic way.He cut his neck with a knife with intention of bleeding to death,and to accelerate his blood loss,began to do push-ups frantically.He didn`t die,but was found,rescued and later convicted of murder.
That`s the true bit,my fantasy is that I`d been there when he was doing the push ups and could have encouraged him to work harder,saying `come on Geoff,one more,just another ten`,and so on.Perhaps lifting his chest up when he reached the failure point,and then died.
Had other fantasys of helping him hang himself on his release from prison.He never did me the slightest harm.Could I realy do this given the chance?Don`t know.

Tiff
08-06-11, 03:33 PM
I couldn't kill someone with violence probably knock them out or like poison them or like keep them in a room over the garage and let them sleep and die but yeah :( I am a sick fuck too I guess

NecroHeadfucker
11-06-11, 02:37 AM
I would never hurt anyone, just sick thoughts I have and decided to share on this site, I feel better now.

I know how you feel. One time, I was drinking and found a guy who looked like my favorite beheading victim, so I kept buying him drinks and coming onto him so when we got together I was going to stab him and behead him. I kept thinking about that the entire time, how to kill him so I could keep his head (again, like my favorite beheading victim) but then I suddenly came to grips with myself and I realized I planned out a murder and nearly went through with it so I stopped. I would never do that, unless it's an end of the world scenario and in that case I'm going to kill people just so I could fuck their heads.

Anyway, I've done that. Other times I've had fantasies about killing people I work with slowly and painfully. I could do it, fantasize it so much that it's planned out down to the last detail. But, would never do it, afraid of going to prison or being killed by police.

Tiff
11-06-11, 03:28 AM
I wanna play with dead people soo badly I fantasize and that shit all the time I wanna work in a morgue or funeral home and sneak in affter hours and play out my fantasies

coldou
16-06-11, 01:19 PM
Meatpie

i understand you more than you know

Art Of War
06-11-11, 09:16 AM
@MeatPie
IF you know you could get away with it, would you fill full your desires and fantasies?

juniorman
23-02-12, 03:32 PM
oh

davi50
25-02-12, 11:45 PM
I too fantasize about my own death it gets me off imagining being strangle or hanged

mtndudesf
02-03-12, 03:25 PM
I wouldn't mind watching a guy beheading himself with a guillotine. Then I won't have the guilt of having killed. I'd prefer watching a guy beheading another guy with an axe but then I would be a witness to a crime.

TallBlond1
17-03-12, 01:28 PM
I make sickplans in my head while people think about love and beauty while I dream of death and destruction.

I am one sick fuck.

I would never hurt anyone, just sick thoughts I have and decided to share on this site, I feel better now.

I can relate, Meatpie. Thing is, during sex our minds can go anywhere. A lot of guys would be shocked to know that the thing that made me actually cum was imagining their bodies decapitated.

cocksucker26
28-07-12, 08:50 PM
So HOT Meatpie! would you ever play with me? Young Cutie here =)
I slept with alive guy tonight. I met him on the internet, we went out in the cold, dark night in a horrific Sofia ghetto. He took me to his dirty smelly apartment on the 7th floor.

It was quite an experience.

I live in a good neighbourhood and had no idea he would take me to some ghetto, almost like the Bronx in NYC.

Unfortunately I find jacking off, blowjobs etc boring and I have killing urges when I am close to cute guys. It was the same with my ex.

These thoughts are hard to control. I make sickplans in my head while people think about love and beauty while I dream of death and destruction.

I am one sick fuck.

I would never hurt anyone, just sick thoughts I have and decided to share on this site, I feel better now.

Bernkastel
05-08-12, 10:26 PM
Everyone has such thoughts - some more than others.

I definitely feel like lashing out at others from time to time and just plain hurting people. However, I know what it is like to be attacked and such so that kind of kills these urges - no pun intended.

davi50
05-08-12, 10:54 PM
I too fantasize about my own death I imagine dying different ways I imagine myself in the morgue being autopsied it gets me off.

Alexnebu
07-08-12, 04:32 AM
Would you like me dead?

bawk
09-08-12, 04:22 AM
Honestly? I think the thought/fantasy/idea of killing some is far more common than most would like to admit (especially if they've done us wrong). I think it's the actual act of going through with it all that's by far more rare!

I've had murderous thoughts for years, ever since middle school and maybe even beyond that. Most of it has to do with my fascination with violence...I've see beautiful guys that I'd fantasy about tearing apart---subjecting them to various cruelties. Whipping their backs bloody and raw with a massive bull whip and then dragging my tongue along the bloodied welts, taking a sharp razor or knife and carving into their hips and chest. Biting them black and blue and tearing at their lips, and for the grand finale tearing out and devouring their heart. A lot of time I'll fantasize doing these things to individuals who more or less deserve them...Serial killers, rapists, and child molesters...The added element of doing this to an 'evil' individual whose subjected other to their own will makes it that much more hot to me. Another scenario that always runs through my head is catching some junkie jacking off in a public restroom and beating him black and blue, then forcing him to 'service' me in a variety of ways :bj:

I've had quite a few self-mutilation fantasies as well that usually creep up on me when I least expect it (like at work) One that I've had for months is taking one of the large box cutters that we use at my job and burying it's blade deep into my throat, slashing it from top to bottom. I can almost feel the hot blood bumping out of my jugular when I imagine this, and the horrified faces of the unfortunate on-lookers as my hot blood splatters their slack-jawed stares. Another one involves smashing my skull in with a hammer.

It sends chills up my spine to imagine these things with the up-most of my ability, but I know deep down I would never be able to visit these horrors upon myself or others. Good thing too, otherwise we'd be like the rest of those maniacs out there (That, and I think the reality would never quite live up to the fantasy...) :hahahahha:

pupforce
10-09-12, 11:23 AM
Death And Destruction can be beautiful as well....I em brass it and welcome it is all it shapes and forms. Though with me I control eat and preserve the head as a trophy. Some guys are the hunter while others are the prey. Some guys are born to be love and others are born for the purpose of becoming a meal. Just depends on how you look at it suppose.

gutpunchmehard
10-09-12, 11:43 AM
hello all, you are not the only crazy people hehehe, thanks god the crazy are many more hehehe. i use to have this kind of thoughts, sometiems i desire to kill some people and sometimes i wuld love to be the victim os some guys i like...

jdinss
10-09-12, 12:07 PM
When I'm fucking a young guy...I imagine a final fuck with him...one that enables me to be his last fucker and my cum the last to enter his hot ass...then I stare at his throat and imagine a noose tightening around it and I breed him...afterwards, the guy always compliments my fucking technique...its intensity and the amount of cum...having no idea what provoked it. I fell no guilt about my fetish---simply use it to get the desired effect.

mtndudesf
15-12-12, 06:32 PM
When I'm fucking a young guy...I imagine a final fuck with him...one that enables me to be his last fucker and my cum the last to enter his hot ass...then I stare at his throat and imagine a noose tightening around it and I breed him...afterwards, the guy always compliments my fucking technique...its intensity and the amount of cum...having no idea what provoked it. I fell no guilt about my fetish---simply use it to get the desired effect.

Exactly, I often imaging my bottom guy's head being chopped while I'm fucking

ebt3
15-12-12, 07:51 PM
Fuck yes, Id love to abuse a dead guy, prefrably young. Id lay him out on the slab and suck on his cold flacid cock , then turn him over, pull his legs wide apart and shove my tongue deep in his arse, make him nice and wet then get up on the table , climb on top of him and slide my cock between his cold flabby arse cheeks. Love to spunk up him, but worried my cum would leak out of him. Sick? Yep