View Full Version : When was your first time?

31-08-09, 11:13 PM
First kiss, first cock?

I first kissed....a girl!!! when I was 13.

:sm (30): YUCKY!

First kissed a dude at 18, I liked it and I became such a slut. Started shagging guys, went to gay parties and could pick up dudes take them home, get them drunk and fuck them raw.

In 2008 my horrific necrophilia obsession took over my misery life.

I wanted the guys to play dead for me, I posted their pics on the itnernet...went to see autopsy dudes.

:sm (41):

So when was your first time and how did it go?

01-09-09, 02:18 AM
Wait, does it make a difference if you did it to someone or if someone did it to you?

01-09-09, 02:22 AM
Apparently I'm a slut cuz my first kiss was when i was 7.
Ahh young sexual exploration.

useless bum
01-09-09, 04:16 AM
In 2008 my horrific necrophilia obsession took over my misery life.

Wait a minute, I thought you were an old timer like the rest of us! You fooled me, huh?

01-09-09, 07:01 PM
my first kiss was when i was 7.

:sm (41):

Wait a minute, I thought you were an old timer like the rest of us! You fooled me, huh?

I've always liked guys, body parts and dead things. But in school everyone had a girlfriend and the dudes only talking about screwing the girls.

So I got one, we kissed and hugged and slept together although I never fucked her, were too young for that.

Then one day a classmate came to me and said, "come to the toilets, I wanna show you something".

I went out of curiousity.

Dude undressed himself and showed me his entire body - chest, feet cock and jacked in front of me.

At that fucking moment I realized how beautiful men are, I got a woody and wanted to fuck him real hard.

I thought he wanted it too.

Unfortunately he wasn't cute in the face but nice bod.

We bacame mates but I think this was the moment something snapped in me and I said to myself no more girls.

Then I read an ad in the newspaper "men seeking men"

Called a 24 yo and we dated and kissed....then another one...and another.

I was so cute when I was 19 at one point I was shagging a different guy every night.

At that point I wasn't imaging them dead or having a strong lust for corpses.

I signed up at ogrish and posted dead guys but was still able to have normal relationship with other gay dudes, went out with girls even.

But in 2007 and especiallly in 2008 it all ran out of control.

I started thinking about dead guys every day.

I also had murder urges, suicide looked hot too.

I bought a camera and filmed myself playing dead.

I've shared some of the images with dudes from cdg.

Then I got a sick boyfriend and he agreed to play dead for me.

I took photos and posted him on cute dead guys.

Stark naked.

It was just crazy.

Then I went to see real dead guys at the morgue, jesus christ.

Now the only thing I want is a job in a decent morgue because I hate rotting bodies and I there is always the risk of infection.

I regret lots of my decisions in the past but nothing I can do about it.

01-09-09, 07:51 PM

01-09-09, 08:45 PM

02-09-09, 01:27 AM
O_O for real

useless bum
02-09-09, 04:39 AM

It will happen, so don't worry. I haven't slept with anybody for 9 years. I am not very proud of it, but with this obsession/infatuation, it is just hard. How do I explain, you know? And if I am rejected because of that? Casual sex just doesn't interest me unless the dude is extremely hot and has a hot motorcycle (or motorcycles).

Besides, I am in the Bible Belt, so I am not all that crazy about dating.

02-09-09, 09:12 AM
Last year, a certain dude and I touched lips for the first time...

It was wonderful!!

02-09-09, 09:33 AM
Yes useless bum, it IS REALLY hard. I want a man beside me so badly only a touch could turn me on. But not any man would do, I want my man fresh & young & tan & lean with firm bod with a sick mind just like mine so that we can share all our necro fantasies

It just makes me feel crazy. I've had enough of women in my life. They're just like all over in my face, at home, at work, I attend classes just to see some men. Soon I can see myself in my granny's funeral watching her dead wrinkled body getting washed & changed & me helping other family members put her in the casket which is just SAD.

I really hope that it will happen but how??? I've kept playing straight to be socially safe & have no clue what to do. It's high chance I would stay virgin til death.

02-09-09, 12:18 PM
Hello BlackWorld, don't worry you will find a partner.

How old are you, you have very high standarts for a partner.

Have you tried signing up at a gay dating site?

02-09-09, 08:23 PM
Have you tried signing up at a gay dating site?

If I want a serious relationship, that's the last thing I'd consider...

03-09-09, 07:36 PM
My first kiss was at 8 years old. Was with the boy who lived down the street from me.

03-09-09, 07:56 PM
Jesus. What happened after that? Where did you kiss?

What if somebody saw you?

That's just crazy.

03-09-09, 08:07 PM
On the lips. Our other friends were with us and thought it was funny, and he was really embarrassed. Children do the darnedest things. :o

03-09-09, 08:14 PM
So more like a joke, not lust?

How did you feel afterwards?

03-09-09, 08:17 PM
Perfectly fine. We were innocent children who didn't even know the term gay, so nothing was thought of it. It wasn't till high school till I started realizing those things. Especially when you're on the swim team... >.<

03-09-09, 08:22 PM
Awww, and you with your perfect body was the most beautiful princess in the pool, RIGHHTTT

:sm (43):

So when was the first time they punctured your tight little anus?

03-09-09, 08:27 PM
idk but each guy on the team was hot as hell, and I saw every one of them naked in the showers. Not a single one was even remotely ugly. That's when I realized how much I was attracted to males over females. At that time I considered myself Bi though. Anal sex seemed disgusting to me still. The first time I watched a gay porn I just felt really ill inside and ignored my feelings for a long time.

Wasn't till college that I had sex with a guy.

03-09-09, 08:39 PM
How did you meet this guy? So he was the first one to go inside you?

03-09-09, 08:41 PM
Yes, and only a friend I hung out with who was gay. Wanted to know what it felt like. :)
He was in love with me though, but I only liked him as a friend.

03-09-09, 08:48 PM
Did he put a rubber on?

Did it hurt? Was he careful?

03-09-09, 09:52 PM
Curious little guy, you are. :o

Yes, he used condom, and he was careful, but it did hurt first time going in.

04-09-09, 12:03 AM
Awww, and you with your perfect body was the most beautiful princess in the pool, RIGHHTTT
:sm (43):
So when was the first time they punctured your tight little anus?

Careful Dogfood, I think Meatpie has a crush on you.
Listen to his graphic questions harhar.

useless bum
04-09-09, 03:10 AM
I want my man fresh & young & tan & lean with firm bod

That shouldn't be that difficult, but I am not sure about this:

a sick mind just like mine so that we can share all our necro fantasies

I may never find somebody, but I think it is kinda okay. I have so many dead husbands that I fantasize about. I know it is not a real thing, but trust me, sometimes, fantasy shouldn't come true.

02-10-09, 09:39 PM
The first time I kissed a boy when I was 9, and he was my best friend, and moved to America. So it was a goodbye kiss. I asked him if someone were to tell him, "I love you" but was afraid of what he would say. He told me, he wouldn't want to change our friendship in the world. We cherished it. So even if I confessed my feelings to him, I was happy to say goodbye, he took it quite well. We are best friends and like brothers. :)

The first time I actully kissed a girl when I was 14. I didn't know her, and her mom died, so in the "family room" of the funeral home, she was sitting there crying her eyes out, and I didn't want anything to do with her. Though my dad thought I needed a girlfriend, and he kept telling her that I like her. I told her, I don't, she ignores that comment and then kisses me.

First contact with female's lips was the most revolting experience in the world. After a few seconds I got a fowl taste in my mouth, and vomited. She was covered in it, and my dad watched this whole scene happened, and he left quietly to talk with the rest of her family. I told her I didn't like her, and kissing girls make me vomit. I like guys. I yelled that out aloud, and my dad heard every word, and that's when I realized I told a bunch of strangers and my dad, I'm gay. I was scared, and I stayed in my room all day.

When my dad came in, his reaction was great. He didn't care. He just told me that he was proud of me for telling him because he knew it wasn't easy. Even if that was the most worst time in my life, also it was the most sweet momery that I have with my dad.

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03-10-09, 04:43 PM
my first kiss is when i am in high school.. he is tall, and fit enough for me... i don't know why i could do that? i always think i'm doing wrong... because my religion is forbid me to do that... ok... that's the first and the last time i kissed someone who i love. by the way he also love me so much... but.. i can't stay at this state forever... it's true, religion can't change my inner desire. But i have to believe... this life is not my final destination... the after life is exist... so, i never contacted to another guy again... this is really hurt me... i always crying everyday and think, why the god do this to me?? i mean to us... if i can be born again, i want to be a real man or a real woman... but it's impossible...

so, the last thing i can do to my God is doing nothing... i don't like a girl, but i'm not allowed (in my religion) to like a man... offcourse, i'm still untouched too...

now.. there someone really hot (Very Fucking HOT!!!) trying to enter my life... i even cant control my mind if i get closed to him... he is straight but DAMN what ever he do to me is like what he do to his girl friend... that's because he don't know that i'm not straight... he is so fucking hot!! he is an athlete, his eyes, his hairy body, his (AHH EVERYTHING) Is perfect!!! you know? he likes to hug me and saying something like "honey," "brother," "i love you" but he don't have any desire to me... it really hurt me that much... God... WHY ARE YOU DOING THIS TO ME??!!!

friends... i dont know what to do... can you help me please? :sm (20):

04-10-09, 11:32 PM
Murumasa, hang on in there! Only you can find your own right answer, maybe a religion (whichever one it is) that does not let you be true to yourself is missing something? if there is a God, I can't believe He wants any of us to remain alone, unable to love and be loved - that seems to me to be a vital part of any striving for higher things. Maybe you can find a group within your religion that take a more open view of God's will, or change to a different religion (no one religion has all the answers, or the only answers - I'm sure of that), or choose to move away from active religion?
Only you can find the right answer for you, from your religious background and your country - but there is one!

29-10-09, 05:01 AM
My firz tym ... wazz 4 'n diz 11 yr ald kid (blonde, tall). i sho u mie wee 'n u show mee ure wee... sew he sho mee hiz wee, a wee 3 inch 'n den i sho mie wee, mach more tinee. Right next 2 dee howz 'n hee pull it rite out zo iee zhow heem mine. Then he got sick or something and had to go away. Does this make me a slut? I telllll you. :(

29-10-09, 10:40 AM
my first kiss hasn't happened yet.

but i am sure it will be done with a girl.

24-11-09, 04:53 AM
woyaokan1983, you consider yourself a bi? I can easily understand how a bi feels, but I find it very difficult to understand that there is any 26-year-old man who has not had a first kiss yet. Mine happened when I was 13. We were both in a Southern China Junior High School. He played basketball well, and I fell in love with him...I kissed him, and he accepted everything I did to him...

24-11-09, 08:12 AM
Lots of dudes here are not that lucky, SIGE2. If any of us choose to come out at a wrong time or place, the consequence can be severe... I understand woyaokan. I'd kiss a woman too if it makes me safe.

24-11-09, 09:30 AM
I hope the situation improves for you guys. I thinking kissing a girl when you want a man will only leave you even more dissatisfied and unhappy.

Having a boyfriend who lets him fuck him, play with him, tie him naked, take photos of him, play dead for you and all other crazy stuff is so hot and I am glad I have experienced it.

I am terribley lonely at the moment but I have had some crazy fun with totally cute guys and even had a boyfriend for two years...until he tried to kill himself.

24-11-09, 06:58 PM
Well since you're talking about gay kisses and I'm a girl I will tell you that the first time I kissed another girl I was 16 and I liked it.

I first kissed a boy at 12.

I first had sex with a girl when i was 18, I first had sex with a boy when I had just turned 15.

I prefer cock definatly! But once and a while a girl is nice to play with :)

25-11-09, 07:07 AM
BlackWorld, necrophilia may be difficult to be understood and/or accepted. However, gay sex though still difficult to be accepted, is understood by a multitude of people worldwide, even in Asia, where the traditional culture is relatively conservative. Our biggest enemy is ourselves. If we care too much of the losses caused by choosing our own lifestyle, our compromise with the "normal" world would make you suffer even more. Pretending to be "normal" has much severer consequences, and the cost would be your lifelong happiness. I was out to my family and friends in China when I was 19. They were shocked at that time, but they still love me and they understand me totally now.

16-03-12, 03:34 AM
I remember when I was about 8 or 9 going to someone's cottage with my best friend and his mother and sister. The guys were sent into a small cottage beside the main one to change and the host's son (about 14) undressed and showed us his fully grown cock. The only male cock I had seen before were of people my age and my father's. He told us we were going to have hair and a big cock like that. My friend and I had already talked about boys and chosen the best looking while out at recess at school (we never played with each other but when in our 50's when we got back together after not being in touch for 30 years we came out to each other). Thus, this introduction to the male body was a turn-on. I fist kissed a girl when I was 12 and married a girl when I was 22 and first came out some 25 years later and left the marriage when I was in my 50's.

16-03-12, 07:12 AM
I was a late bloomer, but there were signs. Growing up I knew what porn was, my dad really didn't try too hard to hide it. When I was in middle school and early high school I looked at a few when my parents were at work. I just didn't get it. I understood the action I just didn't understand the attraction to it. (Still don't) I thought it was abnormal to not "get it" so I kept it too myself. I used to be a very strict christian so I just figured I was just a good christian by not being attracted to matters of the flesh. By the time I graduated high school I was no longer a christian so I gave porn another shot. I still didn't understand the attraction sex act aspects of it but noticed I was watching the guy more than the girl. I slowly began noticing the guys in my everyday life and it just donned on me one day. I have never been attracted to girls but now I am of guys. I started looking at sites online where I could correspond with other guys. Then I met a man locally online. He said he was 49. At first we just sent emails to each other, then I gathered the courage to talk to him on the phone. All of this was kept away from my parents (my mom was still a strict christian). One day after work we arranged to meet one another. He wasn't a great looking guy, at that point I didn't really care, I just wanted to learn. He was very kind to me, never made me do anything I didn't want to do. He was the first guy I kissed and at the time, it felt right. We fooled around for about a year, we never had penetrative sex. Then online, during my sophomore year in college I met the 1st person I ever fell in love with James, the deepest purist love ever, even to this day. We were together for one glorious year before he broke my heart and cheated on me with a con. Deepest hurt I had ever felt and would ever feel until Tor's death (second person I ever fell in love with that later died). I haven't tried finding someone else as looking for love has only ever brought me pain. I figure maybe one day love will find me.

16-03-12, 09:43 PM
Bindi man, fascinating story althought a bit traumatic with break up and death of a lover.

Of course you'll find a partner, you are a great guy I wish I knew you in person.

Straight people can be absolutely miserable. I met a female classmate today that got married several months ago and had a baby.

Baby was cute of course but she looked absolutely miserable and told me that she is very unhappy.

My parents want me to have a family and kids too but will I be happy?

No one cares it seems.