Hi brothers and sisters. I constantly wonder what the monkeys I'm doing here (before you all judge me just hear me out).
I came across this forum late last year when I was looking for a specific picture to help me visualise a scene in a story I was writing that was a death scene. I was so bored at looking for the pictures to aid in my creative flow, I typed "cute dead guys" in a search engine. I was sceptical that it was going to work, thought that nothing was going to come out of it of any use, until the link to this website popped out.
I was a little weary because it had the word 'gore' and 'necro' but I thought I'd check it out. When peered in, there was something dark about the place so I ignored the forum until the next year because I can't seem to finish the story. I thought, "What the heck. I'm only going to pass through, nothing else." When I found out you have to subscribe, again I was weary but I still subscribed because I thought I had nothing to lose.
So, I did then I found all sorts of death scenes that inspired me to write even more. Then I read the posts, I was horrified! The words written about members wanting to... with dead people (no offence cuzs). Especially Arrowman's colourful use of vocabulary describing the pictures and stuff (you do have a way with words Larr). So I wanted to unsubscribe but there was no instruction on how to do so.
So I lurked around a bit looking for options to unsubscribe to the forum, in the mean time, browsing around for useful pictures (you all can flame me all you want, but I don't masturbate to stuff. I did save some pictures and video from the website to see if I like looking at them as a past time, but I found out I'm not really into porn or necro porn so I deleted them. But I do sort of like looking at cute dead guys not in a kinky sense. It's just that dead guys don't judge you, you guys know what I mean. I just want to give them a BIG HUG like when I'm hugging a teddy bear. Really.)
Anyway, I came across more threads about depressed members, people wanting to kill themselves, people that imagine ways to kill themselves. I was horrified! I couldn't sleep properly which made me rethink about leaving the forum. So I thought about "what should I do?"
After reading what was written here, I was stumped. It's like all the people in this forum thinks about all the time is their death and how they want to kill themselves. Some members had already committed suicide sad to say. Yes I cried when I read members' posts. Then I thought maybe I should write a story (which I began writing around February) with good values yet true to myself with a necrophile appeal for my up family here (I sound like a children's program producer, but for necrophiles!) but it's not really finished and the grammar is all over the place so I thought I'll get it ship shape first before I really upload it all. I just need to know if the parts that I uploaded was any good guys, so please kindly give some feedback because if it's really rubbish like it belongs in the trash, I'll stop.
Anyway, I'm going to sound like a nutter (probably am!) but I sort of have this intuitive visions of things to come. Something like deja vu, ever since I was little. It's really strange but I ignored most of it as I was growing up. They were random things anyway. They came about in dreams, when I was pondering at nothing at all in forms of premonitions and signs. Sometimes I just read signs and events and guess the outcome and a lot of the time it is close. I don't know if it is all down to probability. Even I don't believe in psychics and mumbo jumbo but I do joke about it. But there were too much coincidences that I can't ignore it anymore. I don't want to stick around here but I'm scared that the people that died in the visions that I saw is amongst you guys. I'm really worried. What do you guys think? What do I do? Am I just over my head? Do I really care? Am I really concerned about you guys or do I like to hang around narcissistic characters? I really want to know what you guys think.
I came across this forum late last year when I was looking for a specific picture to help me visualise a scene in a story I was writing that was a death scene. I was so bored at looking for the pictures to aid in my creative flow, I typed "cute dead guys" in a search engine. I was sceptical that it was going to work, thought that nothing was going to come out of it of any use, until the link to this website popped out.
I was a little weary because it had the word 'gore' and 'necro' but I thought I'd check it out. When peered in, there was something dark about the place so I ignored the forum until the next year because I can't seem to finish the story. I thought, "What the heck. I'm only going to pass through, nothing else." When I found out you have to subscribe, again I was weary but I still subscribed because I thought I had nothing to lose.
So, I did then I found all sorts of death scenes that inspired me to write even more. Then I read the posts, I was horrified! The words written about members wanting to... with dead people (no offence cuzs). Especially Arrowman's colourful use of vocabulary describing the pictures and stuff (you do have a way with words Larr). So I wanted to unsubscribe but there was no instruction on how to do so.
So I lurked around a bit looking for options to unsubscribe to the forum, in the mean time, browsing around for useful pictures (you all can flame me all you want, but I don't masturbate to stuff. I did save some pictures and video from the website to see if I like looking at them as a past time, but I found out I'm not really into porn or necro porn so I deleted them. But I do sort of like looking at cute dead guys not in a kinky sense. It's just that dead guys don't judge you, you guys know what I mean. I just want to give them a BIG HUG like when I'm hugging a teddy bear. Really.)
Anyway, I came across more threads about depressed members, people wanting to kill themselves, people that imagine ways to kill themselves. I was horrified! I couldn't sleep properly which made me rethink about leaving the forum. So I thought about "what should I do?"
After reading what was written here, I was stumped. It's like all the people in this forum thinks about all the time is their death and how they want to kill themselves. Some members had already committed suicide sad to say. Yes I cried when I read members' posts. Then I thought maybe I should write a story (which I began writing around February) with good values yet true to myself with a necrophile appeal for my up family here (I sound like a children's program producer, but for necrophiles!) but it's not really finished and the grammar is all over the place so I thought I'll get it ship shape first before I really upload it all. I just need to know if the parts that I uploaded was any good guys, so please kindly give some feedback because if it's really rubbish like it belongs in the trash, I'll stop.
Anyway, I'm going to sound like a nutter (probably am!) but I sort of have this intuitive visions of things to come. Something like deja vu, ever since I was little. It's really strange but I ignored most of it as I was growing up. They were random things anyway. They came about in dreams, when I was pondering at nothing at all in forms of premonitions and signs. Sometimes I just read signs and events and guess the outcome and a lot of the time it is close. I don't know if it is all down to probability. Even I don't believe in psychics and mumbo jumbo but I do joke about it. But there were too much coincidences that I can't ignore it anymore. I don't want to stick around here but I'm scared that the people that died in the visions that I saw is amongst you guys. I'm really worried. What do you guys think? What do I do? Am I just over my head? Do I really care? Am I really concerned about you guys or do I like to hang around narcissistic characters? I really want to know what you guys think.