My cousin, 15, was Diagnosed with a Brain Cyst

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My 15-year-old cousin Ivan was diagnosed with a brain tumour after a scan in Sofia.

He has been suffering from seizures from some time and his cognitive abilities are heavily impaired.

:( Doctors have told his family he is unlikely to recover.

His dad was murdered in 1997....by bomb in his suitcase. He was torn apart and they stole his money.

My other cousin, Bobby leaped off a bridge in Sofia last year. He was only 20.

Bobby was tall and cute like a model. We played together as kinds and went swimming in the Danube together.

Although he was younger he was very brave, I though we were gonna drown.

Danube is the biggest and longest river in the EU.

But his mom and dad fought a lot and they seperated. His father became a drunkard and his mom left the country and moved to Italy.

Bobby was not originally from Sofia but moved to the capital in search of a job.

He became a drug-dealer and lived on the streets.

I had no idea until one day I was listening to the radio and they announced in the news, "The body of a young man has been found under a bridge in Sofia. The man is unidentified".

I thought,"poor guy, something terrible must have happened in his life."

A week later mom cums up pale and face distorted with worry.

She told me Bobby has jumped off a bridge...or may have been pushed.

He was in morgue fridge for more than a week until the police could identify him and an investiagtion was underway.
 
Oh my...

I am sorry for that Meatpie...
 
Dear PieMan,

I am so very saddened to learn of this tragic news about your young cousin, Ivan.
When I go out and look up at the starry sky above me at night, I will remember him in my thoughts and know that there just has to be something greater and more powerful behind all of this than just the pain and suffering here.

Pain and suffering which ultimately NONE of us escapes, not one.

You mentioned The Danube River, in a most saddening way. To lift your spirits and to help you to see the majesty, power and mystery of the greater beyond, I present for you here Johann Strauss's "Blue Danube Waltz" as performed in "2001: A Space Odyssey"... and then a surprise.


http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=CDAWszeZtNg



http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=2zCyN4MQn5w&feature=related
 
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Thank you Arrow.

I didn't want my cousin Bobby to die, he was always cheerful and had a great smile.

Why is this happening, I feel utterly devastated???

WHY WTF

I am left with no cousins. No one to visit and go to the Danube.
Their house is totally empty, like a ghost's

His granny died soon after him, apperently she was overcome with grief and gave up on life.

And we used to have large family dinners, lots of noise and activity, kids playing around.

Everyone died.

Burglars attacked the house one night and broke all the windows.

Terrible, just hurts so much I can't describe it.

All I have left is pictures in the photo album.....and one big empty whole in my heart.

I can go on and on....no end to human pain and suffering.
 
Sorry to hear Meaty, you are really getting the shit end of the stick at the moment.
It's hard but keep fighting back, don't go getting all depressed, things have to turn around eventually.
 
Thank you Arrow.

I didn't want my cousin Bobby to die, he was always cheerful and had a great smile.

Why is this happening, I feel utterly devastated???

WHY WTF

I am left with no cousins. No one to visit and go to the Danube.
Their house is totally empty, like a ghost's

His granny died soon after him, apperently she was overcome with grief and gave up on life.

And we used to have large family dinners, lots of noise and activity, kids playing around.

Everyone died.

Burglars attacked the house one night and broke all the windows.

Terrible, just hurts so much I can't describe it.

All I have left is pictures in the photo album.....and one big empty whole in my heart.

I can go on and on....no end to human pain and suffering.

Dear Pie,

I do not know the why of all of this that you share here. I do know that I am truly saddened with you, and yes, right now I am weeping. I really am.

I do not know, PieMan, why this world has to so deeply hurt us, but it does. It always does. Sooner or later, it always does.

I do take solace that there are those with whom we can share our pain and sorrow, and I am thankful for that.

I also take solace, PieMan, at such times in the classicial works of The Masters such as Bach, Mozart, Beethoven, Strauss, Chopin, Grieg, Rachmaninoff and many, many more.

I listen to their music of peace, order and beauty..and then I look at the world still around me...the blossoming, glorious flowers of springtime, the beauty of the colored leaves during Fall, the glistening snow and crisp blue skies of winter, and I say "there is more, this is not all there is."

There is still beauty; look at the hills, the mountains, the sky itself, the stars that twinkle down at night from our Milky Way Galaxy..and then a galaxy beyond that, and beyond that, and beyond that.

Our lives are fleeting here, every one. But there are constants that remain, and the constants despite it ALL are order over chaos, beauty over ugliness, friendships over solitude and yes...I do believe somehow, someway...life over death.

I have gone through many classical works to share with you, and right now, this work seems most appropriate.

It is by Beethoven, from Piano Concerto Number 5, "The Emperor" .. 2nd Movement.

Rest in peace, my friend, and know that you are NOT alone, you ARE NOT at all.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=45rmSAMo_Ig&feature=related
 
Death & Mayhem Rule this Planet, and possibly the whole Universe. I see no hope. Our destruction is inching closer and closer each day. As time passes we see more of the things we love go until we ourselves disappear. Maybe it is best to die young, old age brings saddness and disappointment.
 
Oh PieMan....

Consider this:

Ludwig van Beethoven, a MAESTRO, one of the most gifted musical genuises EVER...here he depended upon the sense of HEARING, to HEAR his works as he wrote them and played them.

Yet around 1801...he went DEAF ! DEAF ??? Yes, we all know this.

The PERFECT STORM ~ and he went into deep despair.

Yet what happened?? He perservered, but it was not just him. Something GREATER than him enabled him, gave him POWER to create again over this CHAOS, to DEFEAT it...and in the process became one of the most remarkable accomplishments of human history.

And what did he compose shortly after this PERFECT STORM?? The "TEMPEST" Sonata.....you will know it.

How did he do it? HOW ??

I don't know, but he DID. The CREATIVE Force of order overcame chaos, hope overcame despair.

Listen to this "Tempest" Sonata of Beethoven:


http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=IlkMGJhUVCY

It is out there, Pie, it is. I believe this; somehow, someway our CREATIVE FORCE, our ENERGY goes FORTH. This is NOT the end.

Although our time here ultimately becomes so very painful...still, still .... our time here is only THE BEGINNING...this is just a mere prelude to so much more.
 
I'm so sorry to hear of this Meatpie. My cousin had a brain tumor. He got an honorable discharge from the military over it. It was removed and he's fine only that his face changed from the operation, sort of paralyzed but not quite. I can't even really tell what the change is, maybe one eye looks smaller. He walks, talks and moves like normal. I guess he just can't do military stuff now. Maybe your cousin will have surgery to remove it?
 
They plan for surgery yes, but his cognitive abilities have been badly affected. He sometimes goes into fits where he starts screaming loudly.

Its gives me the creeps.

Amazing that your cousin recovered, must have been a benign tumour.

I hate cancer. Grandpa died of lung cancer, he just collapsed one day and never woke up.

He had big feet, and amazing body, tall, lean and hairy.

My other grandpa was also very strong, he could crush any guy with a single blow.

He defended me as a kid and I felt absolutely safe with him wherever we went.

I bear his name.

Unfortunately he suddenly passed away of kidney failure in 2004.

At the funeral his mouth was open.
 
you are a very strong individual...

You are not a bad person, only a good person bad thins happened to.

But try to see the beauty in things.
Not everything is dark and gray, there is also color in life.

There is time enough to think about death and destruction, but what good does it do? It only makes you feel worse.
In the 80's and 90's people were thinking the USSR and the USA would nuke us all to hell, that did not happen, because they could see the color in their lives, instead of only the bad in each other.
Enough of this Doomthinking Pieman, it is time to start living!
And if you want to continue thinking on Darkness and gray, that is your call, but remember that life is more then black and white TV!!

There is also color, and it is in the best and clearest picture you can see.
The color in every person.
And all you need to do is watch, just watch...

Goodnight and sleep well!

I am there for you, as I have always been.
 
Easier said than done.

You have healthcare,oppurtinities, jobs.

You saw with your very eyes how destroyed and desolete my country is.

If you remember you said "I see why people get easily depressed here".

You were in this shithole for a few days while I struggle with this every day and there is no escape.

My parents threaten me all the time, they said I am going to jail because I am gay and I have porn on my PC.

Mom said she is gonna stab me if I she finds out I with another guy.

Dad too.

Dad calls me "little faggot".

My sister calls me a fag.

They said we are gonna leave you with nothing because you are twisted and fucked up individual.

It is threats like this every day. And I can't move out.

I want to live with granny but they have terrible terrible rows with her and don't let me even visit her.

It is so bad and I can go on and on.

Life is not easy yes, everyone has problems but sometimes I feel its too much.

I just want to escape from this hell.
 
Meatpie,
sorry things are so hard, hang in there!
HOW COULD ANYONE EVER TELL YOU
YOU WERE ANYTHING LESS THAN BEAUTIFUL?
HOW COULD ANYONE EVER TELL YOU
YOU WERE LESS THAN WHOLE?
HOW COULD ANYONE FAIL TO NOTICE
THAT YOUR LOVING IS A MIRACLE?
HOW DEEPLY YOU’RE CONNECTED TO MY SOUL

Libby Roderick, written for gay men (http://www.libbyroderick.com/index.cfm)
 
Sorry to hear you loss.
Got any pics ?
 
I have a video on youtube of him playing football.
 
:3 can i see baby?
I'd love to kno more about him :D
 
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